Hi Mandy is nuts..(lol I think we're all a bit nutty at times..)
OMG, another doctor saying'its all in your head!' It drives us mad, on here.
You're not the first or the last to have that said to you..
My doc said ‘I can give you antidepressants, because often it's all in the head.' Grrrrrr.
I get so mad when I hear that, someone said on here, that doctors should read this forum,
then they'd probably understand how we feel...
Anyway, stay on the hrt for 3/6months, and if you haven't any relief by then go back and ask for another type.
Most of us have to switch around until we find one that works better, I've been on patches, then pills,
now I'm on pills and a gel too. And still I've got a few problems with anxiety crap, but at least my moods and irritability has gone off a bit.
I don't know what to say about your anger, except, I think we all have that to some kind of degree, it's how we handle it that matters, and as you say, you feel so guilty after, so why not just go out, for a walk, walk it off, or shout in a pillow in the bedroom, punch it even, just so that you don't hurt anyone else, then your guilt won't be so bad, and certainly, DONT self harm....(god, I'm sounding like a bloody therapist,) which I'm not......lol That must make everything worse for you..
It does get better, it's just trial and error I'm afraid, until you find one that suits you....and even then you'll probably have to keep tweaking it, hang on in there, your NOT alone, reading up on here, and posting can be really helpful.
And anyways, it don't matter if you do put a bit weight on, your quality of life is more important at the moment, you can always lose the weight after you start to feel better..
Good luck babe, keep us posted....
Jd xx