For 2 years now, I've successfully followed Prof Studd's regime of 4 pumps of gel + blob of testogel + 7 days of Utrogestan per month. This regime saved me from dreadful anxiety and depression and insomnia, at times it was so awful that I had suicidal ideation.
Fast forward to now and I'm back to bring me again, and infact feel more positive and happier than I have for years and years

But, there's no denying I have gained weight to the tune of about 10lbs and my torso is much thickened. I also seem to have permanently slightly swollen fingers. I also feel that my bowel movements are much slower and I can get constipated.
I'm finding it next to impossible to lose this weight, I have to really punish myself to even lose the first 3lbs.
Could it be because of the amount of oestrogen I'm on? Or is it just middle age? I am very reluctant to risk changing HRT incase it impacts on my mood, but it does get me down that I look and feel so matronly too.