I was never much of a looker when young and had loads of skin problems. Between 30 and 45 I had fifteen years of being good looking. I took care of my figure, had long, blonde hair and looked gorgeous...however, I thought I was fat and ugly even then!!
Since then and affected by early meno, everything has gone. I have put on two stone, can't dye my hair as I seem to be sensitive to absolutely everything and feel ( as I have posted about before) like I have cheated my long term partner who I met at 42, from a gorgeous, slim young looking person to a fat, grey, wrinkly, miserable old woman!!! Like the film The Shining when Jack Nicholson is snogging a young woman who turns into a hag in front of him.
Every year, I think I will exercise, diet and get something of the old me back. Every year I am a stone heavier and eat all the wrong things. I am so unhappy to lose my looks.
I feel for anyone else struggling with this and those who can cope are very lucky or strong people.
Xxx