Hi all
Once again, thank you for your replies.
I had a letter for the referral, and I have to ring up next Thursday to arrange the appointment (it seems a strange system, you have to activate your referral, then wait 4 days for consultant to review, then you can make the appointment). I don't think it can be an urgent referral then.
Been feeling a little better the last couple of days, only very mild sensations. I think I have bee sort of sabotaging things a little. Sort of, when I feel better, eating something unwise to "prove" to myself that I am better. I need to stick to good things (I do mostly anyway) until at least after Endoscopy, to keep things goodish, including my anxiety. I woke up this morning feeling anxious, and I didn't even know why, just a general feeling. I have been trying to be calm as much as I can.
Other meno symptoms seem to be creeping back in... had quite a few hot flushes , my hips were aching yesterday...sigh, I had a good spell on those for a while.
I did make myself laugh the other night. I had bad guts, with lots of wind (sorry tmi), which I was wracking my brains to think why. Egg on toast for brekkie, porridge with banana and cinnamon for lunch, what could it be??? I completely forgot that I had a mixed bean and vegetable stir fry for dinnner. Doh!!
CKLD -- sorry to hear your having a tough time with DH & your Mum. It sounds like you have also had more than your fair share of health problems, and I feel a bit ashamed that I am freaking out so much, when others have been much braver.
New man came over last night, and I plucked up the courage to tell him about the Endoscopy and also about my appointment for the meno clinic next month (this would have been a major thing for me as I live my life under a veil of secrecy at the best of times, but to tell a man with whom I am trying to build a special connection!), and he could not have been more lovely. He has offered to come with me for the 'scope. That makes me tear up just typing it.
Also it is very,very comforting to know that others have had the same gastro symptoms. I promise not to google anymore. IT does mean however, that I might whinge more on here when i start to feel overwhelmed. Sorry 'bout that.
hope you are all having a lovely weekend
Jeepers
XXX