Hi Rosenath,
I was averse to ADs or any medication 3 1/2 years ago. But when i went into severe insomnia resulting in horrible anxiety over night, i had no choice but to take an AD. I emotionally struggled taking it for many months. I tried HRT, but they were not for me. So my only option was AD. I also had and still sometimes have health anxiety after getting horribly sick on a trip to a tropical country. That was scary. And i still have that fear on a lesser level.
First they tried Citalopram but it was not for me. Then the doc tried Mirtazapine and i am still taking it. My doctor thinks i am more sensitive to the fluctuating hormones than most women. I am also sensitive to lots of medication. So she tries in very low doses with me and raises it carefully after observing how i am reacting to the dosage. Now i am taking 15 mg Mirtazapine with 20 mg Promethazine and later before bed time 10 mg Promethazine. The Pro is sedating.
In the beginning, you will go through an adjustment time with the ADs. Take a couple of weeks off from regular job. But after one or 2 weeks you will start feel better. It might be a slow or quick recovery depending on how your body reacts.
I weaned myself off of it in 2015 and 2016 as i was feeling better. But this year, everything started getting worse again and i went back on it. Coincidentally i haven't had a period for 6 months now. I guess i will be on it until i am well over menopause and my hormones have stabilized. Or even longer. I don't know. I am back on the AD since only 2 weeks. My depression could be better but the anxiety is reducing and the sleep is slowly getting better. I won't go into side effects as each person reacts to meds differently.
So instead of prolonging the suffering, give it a try. If Citalopram is not for you, then your doctor might try another AD. So have some patience. For full effect, it will take 6 to 8 weeks. Mirtazapine helps insomnia, depression and eating disorders all in one. The side effect with most AD is weight gain.