My husband just said in answer to the what if - its so what!
I tried mitrazapine about 3 yrs ago and it zonked me out for 3 days, could barely keep my eyes open but then the sedative effect wore off
I then got severe acid reflux and had to give up after 2 weeks plus terrible twitchy legs, both known side effects.
I have hiatus hernia and keep it under control with strict diet and ranitidine but all anti depres medication gives me bad acid - typical!
Ah the rushing newsreel in your head whilst you lie there like a rigid plank with the ever present " what if"