I feel fair today, not bad and not great. I have been a little nauseated for 3 days, and feel a little heavy in the womb. Perhaps I'm trying to ovulate? By the calendar I'm due to begin progesterone this weekend, but today would be about day 14 since my last period began. I always start before I finish the progesterone. I bet my own hormones are trying to maintain. That could partially explain my irrational anxiety and such yesterday. I do remember when I did have predictable periods that I always had a flip-flop mood day around ovulation where I felt off for a day or two.
What you say about never going out to your own garden resonates. It seems absolutely nuts to me now, but I was in the same shape over the winter. I am definitely improving. It makes me feel better to know that you rebounded from this too. I know women suffer from anxiety in menopause, but when it's disrupting my own life, I feel like I've lost my mind and I'm the only one and it will never get better. I know how ridiculous and irrational that is, but try telling me that when I'm worrying or crying.
Edit: I forgot to mention. Last night, well after I was calmed and cried out, I had the little flip-floppy thing with my heart when I was in bed reading. It's been quite awhile since that's happened. That adds to my suspicion that my own hormones are fluctuating at the moment.