Hi Noodle,
I've just turned 53 and I was on Elleste Duet 1mg for a year & a half, came off it in September following gp advice, risk of heart disease (I'm diabetic), breast cancer etc. I was great to begin with, not had a period since September, fantastic!! But then at Christmas I felt like my world was crumbling, I couldn't stop crying and felt so desolate. I didn't link it to the menopause at all until the mid/end of January when I got the exact same feelings all over again only this time I had the most horrendous night sweats (I've had night "head" sweats for 12 + years), couldn't sleep, had no interest in anything, terrible anxiety, palpitations and panic attacks. I really couldn't see a way through it. I went back to my gp and have now gone back on Elleste Duet 1mg, we both felt this was a better option than anti depressents. The night sweats stopped within a few days, the anxiety is still there but not quite as bad on a day to day basis, however, we should have gone to a family meal tonight, son's gf's 21st... I woke up at 2.30am in a panic at the thought of being around so many people, I couldn't go. Now I feel awful for letting her down but I know I would have felt worse if I'd gone and had a panic attack. It's about 4 weeks since my last emotional breakdown and although the feelings are back they are not nearly as bad, I do feel like I'm coping better this month. I've been back on hrt for 3 weeks now and am expecting monthly bleeds again, but I think that's a small price to pay if I regain my sanity and my life. My gp did say there is a type of hrt we can take where we don't have a bleed but I'm a year too young for it... roll on next February when I'm 54!