Thank you everyone, for replying!

Some food for thought here for sure.
As for counselling, well I went to the surgery a year ago when I registered here, had a panic attack in waiting room, explained I had a fear of coming to doctors and was offered an appointment for counselling to address this fear, but first needed to see a psychiatric nurse (that's how they do it here)........ SIX months later, yes SIX months, I got a call.

In the meantime my fear of doctors had got worse waiting and waiting, made worse by my being literally bombarded with appointments to go for screening for - cervical smear, mammogram, diabetes check, bowel cancer check, asthma review, HRT review, large packages with forms to fill in as I had been chosen for TWO national long term health surveys.
This was THE very worst thing that could have happened for someone like me

Needless to say I've attended none of these, which isn't like me as I am normally up to date with my smears etc despite my fears.
During the last few months though my HRT began causing major PMS type symptoms, anxiety issues and insomnia on top of my fears about health and the doctors - hence why it has all come to a head now and me needing to see someone and to get meds in the ridiculously long waiting period.

OR I'll ask to be refereed to see someone privately
Aww I feel awful again now just typing all that out. I feel nauseous.
