Hi all. Been to my Mum's as is usual for me on a Saturday but I know I wasn't myself and felt so rough all day but tried to hide it as much as I could, but Mothers know better...
Had a really bad night at Daughter's. Was awake from 3am with awful anxiety and couldn't calm myself for ages, tapping, deep breathing etc. just so relieved when daylight came. Kept thinking about the last Valium I had but decided might need it another time. Grandchildren completely ignorant of poor Nan's suffering!
CLKD, you're probably right but of course, I have to catastrophise everything....have even started to consider other deadly things to with oesophagus etc, or whatever else chest pain can be a symptom of. Default death with me every time....
Might not need the psychodynamic type therapy as I don't really have childhood issues thankfully although I was an anxious child but that's all, hope you find some answers BJ and can move on, must be very hard for you.
New beginnings, yes, this forum is a Godsend. Really lovely people on here and a sanity saver at the moment.
Well will plod on with the ADs and hopefully they might work. I just wish they were as quick as Valium....now that would be wonderful....dreading bedtime as I just don't know how to deal with that awful feeling in the night apart from what I am doing but I am worn out....I need my sleep to function.