Hi ladies. Have been lurking for a few months and feel like I have had some good advice from your posts. I am definitely post menopausal, at least 6 years, aged 59 soon. Have always been an anxious person and am prone to depression. Was on Citalopram quite happily for around 8 years on and off. It had to come off them as Dr said there were now contraindications with betablockers which I take for palpitations. I had more or less weaned off from the Citalopram as seemed ok but now have terrible anxiety and depression. Have just got through Christmas but didn't want to know, just wanted to tell family to go home etc. I feel so pessimistic about life and everything. Nothing makes me happy. Holidays are a no no as I can't well up any enthusiasm for them. Trying to cope with 4 full days of work in a busy office, give up Saturday's to my elderly mum, then family tend to come for tea on Sunday's. Marriage isn't a good one but I can't face the alternative as that will just make me even more poorly. My daughter doesn't understand anxiety or depression so keeps her distance and my sons are lovely but are men. I feel like I am just existing with nothing to look forward to apart from illness and old age. I also have severe HA which means I go to pieces at every twinge or symptom. I am terrified of taking a different AD for fear of feeling worse. Sorry for rambling on but could this still be just because of no estrogen anymore? I am just so desperately unhappy. Have had CBT and some private therapy. I just want to be like my friends, all full of energy and getting on with things. Just watching people dancing or walking on TV makes me tired as I can't do that without struggling. So fed up.