Oh shucks ……….. ……… I couldn't work on a Till anywhere as I'm figure blind ……. let us know how you get on! The trick is that if someone pays with a 'note' to keep the note on or beside the Till until the change has been given. That way there are less likely to be arguments over the amount of 'change' given …….. this morning I paid with a £20.00 note and the lady, who I've known for years, gave me change for a fiver but she had the 20 still out of the drawer - I joked that it was only made this morning so I knew it had been a 20
What dose did you take over-night? Yesterday I was BB free, no heavy headed feelings and slept all afternoon: last night cut my 40mg in half, today I feel hung over ………. will take 20mg again at bed time and see how I go.
I'm taking 10mg in the morning at the moment - I'm not sure whether it makes a big difference or not. But some mornings I am noticeably jittery and then I think it calms my heart down.
What was hard was sorting out my feelings recently which I think were due not only to the beta blocker dose (20mg) as to the reality of my situation really sinking in - it's been really hard to come to terms with. It didn't help that the agency worker who saw me earlier this week when I wasn't having a good moment suggested that perhaps I should be signed off from work (i.e. get notes from the Dr). This was the first I'd heard about this practice and I started to panic as I've not done it up till now because I don't have a job anyway and I really wish she'd brought it up sooner - I kind of wish I had registered with another mental health agency for support ... but that's a whole other story. However, when I saw the CAB for advice a while back, I was told I wasn't entitled to any benefits because I hadn't worked enough hours in my last job to qualify for any of them ... so I don't know. It's too late for me to claim anything now as I'm sure Dr's notes can't be back dated. And I really don't feel up to interacting with Job Centre staff ... so I just have to accept my savings going down and down and trust that, in the end, it will all work out.
At least the people who are going to rent the flat to me are nice and they reassured me again this week not to worry about homelessness. It's just so hard to come to terms with my situation. I think I need to be out and about and doing a bit more voluntary work to be honest but it's also not long till the care agency training course either - and I don't know whether I can delay that or whether delaying that is a good thing - I just haven't felt up to doing a lot lately and I let the exercise slide which hasn't helped.
But today I made it to a pilates class and I'm going to try and do another exercise class tomorrow and not back slide as much ... it's just hard because things have gone on for so so long now and I keep wondering when I'm going to feel more better. I find I get overwhelmed really easily. Am seeing the Dr on August 10th so will have a chat with her then.