Hello and welcome Greenfields
What an incredibly stressful time you have had. It is no wonder that your body and mind have simply had enough.
To answer your question, yes my hormones caused my world to crumble over the space of just a couple of weeks back in November 2013. Like you, I had endured a very stressful couple of years. Extreme money worries. An ill parent. A husband who became withdrawn and depressed (due to money worries). Starting a challenging new job.
The danger signs were already there. I suffered a panic attack the second day of my new job and had insmonia that night, but I just shrugged it off and soon got to grips with my new role. Then my husband took me away for a weekend but I couldn't enjoy it as I felt uncharacteristically flat. So I feel my body was already teetering on the brink, but then peri menopause symptoms kicked in and they tipped me over the edge.
Within days I was experiencing waves of extreme anxiety. It was terrifying. I had to cancel social plans and force myself into work. I secretly cried in the bathroom after my children had gone to bed. I woke my husband in the night telling him that I wanted to find all the pills we had in the house and swallow them all, just to make the fear/anxiety stop. I thought I was going mad.
I went to see my GP who just diagnosed anxiety/depression and, like you, prescribed me Sertraline. I took it for exactly 26 days. It was horrendous. My anxiety tripled. I had a panic attack. The very night I first took Sertraline I didn't sleep a wink. I felt shaky, weak, with constant diarrhoea and totally lost my appetite. I had to take days off work and couldn't even bring myself to speak to my own children. I insisted we didn't attend a friend's wedding and insisted we cancel another weekend away, because I couldn't cope with doing ANYTHING.
Does any of that sound familiar?
I went back to my GP in desperation after 26 days of sheer Hell. She admitted that Sertraline 'can' increase anxiety in 'some' patients. I was obviously one of them. She swapped me to Amitriptyline. An older AD. It worked, in so far that it took away the anxiety and panic, but left me feeling very dreamy every day with a 'who cares?' attitude to everything. Restful, but I wasn't 'me' if that makes sense?
I stopped taking the Amitriptyline last September. I felt okay for a couple of months, but then at Xmas all the anxiety/depression/insomnia came back with a vengence. It was a very dark time. Yet I would still get the occasional day, or even 3-4 days where I would feel 100% fine and normal again, and I wouldn't recognise the person I had previously been. Sound familiar?
I finally saw a consultant who diagnosed hormonal related anxiety/low mood. I was 'a classic case' apparently. But (for several reasons) it's taken a further few months for me to actually start HRT. In that time I had a whole month where I was symptom free, followed by nearly 3 weeks of anxiety Hell again. I had daily diarhhoea (a classic symptom of fluctuating hormones according to my consultant), random insomnia. The only think I haven't had is hot flushes. Not a one.
I am on Day 9 of HRT. Still very up and down. Tuesday I felt great. Yesterday I felt dreadful. Today I feel upbeat and positive.
So, please be assured that you are perfectly NORMAL, as far as struggling with hormones goes. Don't feel alone. Lots of very similar stories to mine and yours on here. Lots of support too, and useful advice. Please keep posting, we are all here to help xxxx