I actually feel fine. Healthy and fit in fact and feel a bit of a fraud - surely with cancer you're meant to feel ill? Everyone around me is a in bit of a flap about it but I'm fairly calm and resolute, though it has kicked in my insomnia again for a night or two, just after I'd got it all sorted.
I've found the key thing in this (for me at least) is thinking I'm playing some part or having some control. This is where the nutrition side has come into it. Ok so it won't cure me, but it can give me a great boost and I'm really feeling the benefits of having mostly raw food. I'm also cutting out toxins and chemicals as much as possible, it's amazing how many we're exposed to.
It can only help.
I did see my partner cry for the first time on Tuesday after the diagnosis - gulp. That really tugged at my heart strings. Strangely enough I think it's easier for me as I have got some control and some say in all of this, his role is supportive but has limitations. Saying that, he's been an absolute rock in this.
A new journey, not one I'd planned but I'm hoping at least to be able to shape it.
GG x