TV69 - I'm speaking from a position of ignorance here but is it possible for you to take your hormonal treatment in a "continuous" way for a few months so that your hormone levels are constant, your cycle stops, and you don't get a bleed? You'd need to speak to your GP about it but it might get you on a more even keel for a while so that you can catch your breath. If younger women can take the pill in this way so that they can go travelling or train for sports events etc without the hassle of periods surely, with supervision, it should be OK for someone like you who really needs a break from chaotic hormones... I hope you feel better soon. PS I agree completely with the above advice to eat enough - I feel terrible if I don't eat enough or late - crashing mood, self-pitying, cold, knackered, irritable and a whole pile of other less-than-endearing qualities! Sod the big bum!