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[TropicalVon69]

Sorry ladies, I need a rant....period week and I feel absolutely toxic and hateful....I just want all of this to end....scared I'm going to hurt my children....though I know I won't, I'm just so ang ry, shaky and hormonal.....this hell is too much to bear sometimes....horrible thoughts and feelings when I used to be such a bubbly optimistic person ....it can all EFF ....started elleste duet last month and actually felt like my old self for a few days and then my period started...took one da y of prog and stopped as panic started again and hasn't stopped though I only took one...have a doc appt at 2so hopefully she might start me on fomoston.....can't stand this much longer, to be honest today, I don't feel like going on though I obv will as I love my kids so much.....its such a cruel time for us....after a lifetime of Caring about and for people we get this ***t......sorry for negative post but have had it with peri already and only started last year.......went through hell last year, tried citalopram which gave me horrible frightening thoughts and still have them, though had some reprieve on elleste white tabs....effing sick of this existence at the moment!!!!

[dazned]

Sorry you are feeling so low,we all know how you feel !

Good that you are seeing doctor but unfortunately for us all hrt takes time to work at least 3 months and usually it's the progesterone bit that usually takes some getting use to . Believe me I know that isn't what you wanted to know.
Someone else I'm sure will be along soon with some more help and encouragement
But for now sending love ,it will get better but it's a long hard slog  .

 

[Millykin]

Hi TV69
It's such a hard place to be in. I started with Elleste duet and lasted 3 months, the prog didn't suit me either. I remember feeling terrible on that part, when you go back to GP be adamant that you want Femoston. At least you are aware of how you are feeling and know it's not right. X

[dazned]

It's all trial and error but 1 month really isn't sufficient time for your body to adjust I took at least 3 months to get use to Estelle duet but then it was fine for 4 years !

 Now having to change to femoston and going though the same awful adjustments,panic,palpitations,anxiety attacks just terrible nausea, if only we could find a quick fix we would be millionaires !

But I really sympathize with you I'm in the same boat as you but we will get there one step at a time x

[Kathleen]

Hello TropicalVon69.

I feel for you and I know where you are coming from. There have been times on this journey when I've felt as desperate as you and I've often had similar thoughts, it's not your fault and you are not alone in this.

I'm post meno and like you I have decided to give my HRT the full three months, a few weeks ago I felt better and now feel terrible again and the disappointment is crushing.

I have been guided and comforted by the lovely ladies on this site and I'm sure you will be too.

Let us know what your doctor suggests for you and I wish you well.

Take care.

K.

[CLKD]

It sounds like acute PMT - you need to talk with your GP about how desperate you feel!  Have a look at the National Association for Pre-menstrual Syndrome and ask for advice there.  You should NOT have to put up with these feelings.

[TropicalVon69]

Thank you so much for all your understanding  and comments ladies......it means solo much..just felt so awful the last few days and top of my head feels like its going to pop off today lol....the upshot of doc appointment was that she gave me femoston hurrah.....just a wee query though...when do I take it as I am 4 days into period and brain is befuddled x

[CLKD]

Glad your GP is sympathetic!  You could ring a Pharamcist in the morning for advice? it may say in the packet bumph?

[TropicalVon69]

Thanks clkd I will check it later as had a really busy day taking dad shopping etc and feeling very tense and fatigued.....thank you all so much xxx

[Millykin]

Good news!
You are supposed to start on first day of period I think so if you start tonight just miss the first 3 tabs in pack and that should keep you on track. I'm sure but don't quote me. I would cause you can't wait till next period x

[donnacrichton]

Hi just want to sympathize U had same reaction to citalopram. I have also been in that dark place. Whenever I'm struggling which is quite often I come on here and pour my heart to these ladies who are the people who know what it's like. Xx

[TropicalVon69]

Awful isn't it Donna...hell on earth....thanks Milly, will take first one tonight and keep everything crossed.....totally don't want to wait another month xxx

[donnacrichton]

Good luck  hope you get some relief  x

[nelliedee]

''after a lifetime of caring for people and we get this ''
That struck a chord with me, its so true

I can so relate to your post and now dread periods as they make me so irrational. I am currently having CBT with a therapist who I felt at ease with immediately (very important I think) and I am very hopeful. I do not take HRT so cant help you there but just wanted to say I hope you feel a little easier today xx

[TropicalVon69]

Thanks again for your support ladies, I was in such a dark place this week and not for the first time feeling that I didn't want to go on.... I feel a little better this morning and my heart goes out to all of us in this sometimes horrendous journey....I hope for myself and all of us light at the end of this tunnel.....first white tab last night though I am halving them night and morning so as to minimise symptoms...I did this with elleste and seemed OK with it......hope  to be of some Support to to all too......Can I ask you all....my period seems to come every 3 weeks so if it starts do I just continue with the green tabs until it is finished?...my period started after 2 weeks on elleste and a bit worried about this...will my cycle just fall into place after a few months of continuous hrt?...Thanks xxx