Brightlight - yes, my appointment is in a couple of weeks. On my good days, and even the evening of bad days, I almost feel like I don't need to go and should cancel - it really is that up and down.
I have to say, generally I feel better than I did before Christmas - not as physically unwell and not like I'm going mad, thankfully! I'm sleeping miles better, which makes a HUGE difference.
The worst aspect is not feeling like myself on bad days. I sometimes feel it's a huge effort to do anything at all, and I can feel unsettled - if I'm at home, I feel I want to be outside, but when I'm out, I want to be at home. It's a sort of restlessness.
I will admit, part of me is keen to see the specialist and get her view (a diagnosis?) and maybe a solution, in the form of HRT...but a big part of me is worried about taking that step and possibly making a not great situation worse in the short term - my symptoms aren't unbearable, just not very nice.