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[GypsyRoseLee]

So lovely to read your story Millykin, thank you for sharing it with us.

Even though my FSI levels and bone scan show I am NOT anywhere near menopausal my consultant thinks I am definitely peri menopausal because of my symptoms.

Like you it's the sudden anxiety and feelings of doom/panic which has been the hardest to bear. It's so evil.

Your post really resonated with me as last year we took our daughter out for a birthday meal last year and it was just the most awful experience. I just felt so low with constant pangs of anxiety. I was scared to be in the restaurant. But I was scared to go home too. Basically I just felt so frightened of everything and anything that night. And it all happening in a little bistro that we have known and frequented for years and years.

I don't think I have ever felt quite so dreadful since that night. But I am hoping that HRT will make such a night a very distant memory.

[Millykin]

Gypsyroselee
Just remember how you felt that night and how you are now. I had the most terrible night last year and it only dawned on me when I booked this year how far I had come. We tend to think we are getting nowhere but when you look back at certain times we are. I posted it because it will help others knowing we can get there, maybe not the way we were but getting closer.
I had such a great night last night it was as if I was a totally different person laughing joking wanting it to go on all night! Far cry from sitting in a corner with soup and water forcing it down wishing everything and everyone would just shut up and disappear! I'm sure you'll know that feeling 
I'm only 44 my life should be good at this age. Wishing you all the best Gypsyroselee x

[honeybun]

Just proves how much we can improve Milly. It's a lovely place and very relaxed which I imagine would help.

Was that kind of thing your biggest problem

Mine were shops and queues.....which are mostly under control.....and restaurants...which I have yet to try. I think I would need a glass of red to get me there.....then there is the doctors anxiety and the hospital anxiety.......ok shoot me now 


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[Millykin]

HB all the things you have mentioned were a problem, I haven't tried larger restaurants yet. It was the food thing feeling sick and watching everyone eat and famy discussing what they would have! I can do small shop as long as queues are small, or big shop if hubby with me, it's that open space and lights thing. My daughter attends hospital a lot, got over that cause if anything happens I'm in best place 
I've adjusted so well because I don't make plans as such (some I have too) just each day as it comes, and I just tell myself I can ask hubby or other daughter to go to hospital appointments.
I even noticed tonight when I nipped up to town I was happy and having a bit of banter with staff, almost skipped out of the shop, oh I hope it lasts x

[honeybun]

I hope so too Milly.....maybe would should face some things together...hold each other up lol.

Why do hospitals and waiting rooms have to be so hot...makes it ten times worse. As for the dentist...ummm...nope...not yet.

You are doing really well. Keep it up.


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[Millykin]

Oh I was at a clinc with my daughter and some poor lady sitting opposite me looked terrified, red face, fanning herself with a leaflet looking about I felt so sorry for her I got up got a cup of water and gave her it and just spoke to her. On my way out she ran after me thanking me so much for what I done she said she was anxious and couldn't even move but I just calmed her right down. No one noticed it was as if I knew her. I have seen her again since at clinic with hubby and they both wave x

[CLKD]