Hi
I just don't know why my body is screaming for more oestrogen or some other thing, when I am already on 2mg per day.
That's the thing, it's impossible trying to push myself to do things when I am this depressed. I'm not crying or emotional, i am just low and apathetic. I cant smile.
I'm sure other meno women must have felt the same way when their meno related apathy means they just don't have the oomph! in them to push themselves.
Pushing myself requires energy i haven't got.
In the past I have tried all treatments for anxiety and depression and got some very useful psychological tools which I use all the time, but, this is physical, it's not psychological.
My diet is great, plenty fruit, various seeds, salads, veg.
My body is telling me loud and clear that it is not getting enough of something, and I am worried that it's oestrogen.
I am worried I am not absorbing it for some reason, I am the only woman that I have read about who's hrt has not made them feel like a new woman.
It has partially helped but not enough for me to have quality of life.
This life is not worth living, and that disincentivises me to do anything.
I feel like I am walking in treacle and that it's always going to be like this.
I just cannot pretend that I am happy and all is well because it isn't.
I don't know how I can get it across, I just don't have the energy to do excercises. It's just not there.
It's more than just pushing myself.
I'm sure there are other meno women out there who identify with this.
It's one reason, and the flushes, why many have gone onto hrt.
With psychological depression its easier to push yourself but when your hormones are out of balance to the extent mine are, pushing myself just isn't enough.