All of it! I am just being stupid and need to pull myself together! People have been through so much worse.
Getting there in the first place will be hard. I have a phobia of needles and hate hospitals, which came about from unexpectedly seeing my Mum with all sorts plugged into her in hospital. No-one warned me and I was only 15. Sadly we lost her, which also affects the whole 'hospital' experience.
Then I guess it is the scarring and not knowing how big/deep it will be and how long before it fades
I know I will be fine and I am telling myself that all the time. Mind over matter and all that. I am a very strong willed person and I will be ok, I just can't stop worrying at the moment and my brain is working overtime with all the 'what if' scenarios...what if the surgeon has a bad day, what if it goes wrong, what if it doesn't heal, what if I get MRSA. Nightmare! So,I am trying to keep busy with other things and keep myself calm.
I realise how pathetic I am sounding, but thank you for listening! x x
Thanks for the info links silverlady - very detailed. The 'shaving' part made me chuckle, they talk about pre-surgery hair removal rather than the technique!!