ahhhhhh, I really do hope you both feel better soon

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I too have suffered with anxiety on and off for years

I too have thought processes that I recognise when I am going 'down'.
I've recently realised my anxiety has been linked to hormones, 10 year ago my hubby had a vasectomy so I stopped taking the pill (had been mostly Ok on the pill as I recall - never had mood swings or PMS)
After I stopped taking the pill my PMS started with a vengeance - along with anxiety in 2nd half of cycle

I also had PND after my babies - again hormonal, obviously. It would appear I am intolerant to progesterone because I have had the very same symptoms which are very recognisable feelings to me, whilst I've been on HRT in the progesterone phase.
For me my symptoms are mainly paranoia (mild - but still enough to bring me down) I think no-one likes me and I am boring, not good enough etc etc.

and I can associate with the actual crying out because of memories and feelings of guilt too!

I've done that - usually after something from years ago just pops into my mind and it all becomes too much

I also get so I don't want to go out of the house

We moved to a house in the country, and my kids go to school by taxi. I don't know many people and the more time goes on I really cannot be bothered to try change anything!!

Sorry, I've rambled on but I wanted to sympathise!
on the other hand I do like a good giggle and I don't want to be DEFINED by my fluctuating hormones! I'm still young a heart, enjoy a night out, have lots of fun with my hubby and kids travelling and holidays etc!! So it's not all gloom!!

If anyone wants to PM me I'd be happy to chat, or on here.
You're NOT alone!