You're right, CLKD, it's the unknown that's the problem. We're in limbo right now. Unfortunately I've had a lot of experience with cancer over the years, with my mum and grandmother. I can't shake my negativity at the moment and there are issues I need to deal with. The consultants described the lump as 'sinister' and seemed fairly sure that's what it is. I doubt the biopsy result will show anything different.
My mind's in turmoil, my husband is very upset too and our very perceptive 12 year old is picking up on it all. We don't want to burden friends and family with this but being open about it might be the better choice, for everyone? No idea how I'll tell my aging dad and my sister, after what we went through with mum...
I have always maintained a positive attitude, truly believing there was a good chance it wouldn't happen to me. I never smoked, never took hormones, ate pretty well and my health is generally very good. This has completely knocked the wind out of me...