Thanks Ladies, don't worry hot and spicy, I won't be going anwhere on holiday Uk or abroad without propanolol, herbal meds, or valium!! I soo want to give it a go but I'm feeling so dodgy again at the mo - I'm crying alot and feeling very down in the dumps in the morning....generally feeling sorry for myself (not good). I'm wondering whether now is the right time to push it?

Have just started a different HRT yesterday so wondering what that will bring over next few days...
Firewalker - I'm not a fan of flying but I've never considered alcohol or valium etc to get through it. It's always been at a level a lot of people experience I should imagine.
Last year unfortunately, when I arrived at the airport to fly home with my family, I was hungry, very stressed about something else, and extremely hot and I ended up having a massive panic attack. I calmed down enough in time to board and then the anxiety went completely. It was a few weeks after this that I fell apart completely and now realise that my perimeno symptoms were reaching a climax!
The thought of being a long way from home in a foreign country frightens me when I think of "what if I freak out and want to get home and I can't?" Crazy I know but that's meno for you!