Thanks ladies for all your wonderful advice. In my hand luggage I have beta blockers, diazepam, bachs rescue remedy, chewing gum, sweets, an iPod and trashy mags - these are my distractions for the flight. I am not going to wait till I am freaking before I take a diazepam. I will take one the night before and one when I get up. I think I am mostly excited. However today I have the obligatory migraine that goes with my pmt - just need to find a way to gently get through the day. Did a lot of the running about stuff yesterday. Oh and my tummy was all better yesterday so must have been a bug. Wish you could all come with me! Xxx