Just read your post, WTD, and I think you were right to leave your job - if employers intimidate their employees because they are suffering from depression then the problem is only going to get worse. I left my job last spring (after six years, as well) after suffering severe depression &, like you, found I started ruminating over things whilst at home so I started volunteering as it got me out of the house, helped to give me a sense of purpose & there was no pressure. I'm not saying it's for everyone but it definitely helped. I know what you mean about not wanting to get up off the bedroom floor & do anything - I was like that !ast February & March & was given diazapam which helped but it is not a long term solution because of the high dependency risk. In November, I started to head back downhill but CBT helped me back up again. It's !ike being on a hormonal rollercoaster as I have recently been going through another dip (after Christmas). My current job is not helping (I had to start working again late last summer for financial reasons & I am desperate to !eave). Like you, I tend to be wary of posting when feeling depressed, hence me not being on here as much lately. I have had problems with AD's because of nausea, insomnia &, worst of all, reactions. I used to be able to take my SSRI AD's without any problems until !ast year when I started coming out in bumps & getting itchy, the day after taking them. I did try again recently but the same thing happened. Just riding through without meds at present but will consider trying amitriptyline if I get really bad again. Thanks for your posts & for giving us hope that it DOES get better. Xxx