How disappointed are you that your sister has cancelled?
I was raised by a Narcisstic Mother …… but wasn't aware of it until after Dad died (long story short).
Although encouraged to 'do your best' I felt often that I never quite came up to standard
. I had to discipline myself to accepting that what ever I did was *my* best and if it wasn't enough, then any feelings that my parents had were theirs - not my fault
and I also had to teach myself to say 'no' more often and not be bothered if it did't suit the other person. It does get easier
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Those people that I felt 'disliked' me are no longer on my C.mas card list ;-). As I grew older I became less boffered about what others might think ……. as long as I do my best each day: my other mantra is "I'm out of bed, what more do you want?"
You are feeling vulnerable so homework will be hard work initially. Little steps ……..