I have been thinking about this a lot over the last few days and I have decided that taking HRT has been the best thing I have done in a long, long time. I don't think I realised how bad I was feeling - it is only now because I am feeling SO MUCH MORE LIKE MY OLD SELF AGAIN, that I realise that I have been down in the dumps for a long time, certainly due to my fluctuating hormones and the onset of the menopause 2/3 years ago.
Even little things like setting off some fireworks in the garden last night for my daughter felt good, whereas last year it was something I went along with just for her and got absolutely nothing out of it but last night it was different - I actually enjoyed it. It was the same when we went on holiday at the end of October, it was such a pleasant experience, unlike my summer holiday which was an absolute nightmare from start to finish, it just seemed like hard work.
I know there are risks in taking HRT. In fact, I went to see my rheumotologist a few weeks ago and she is running tests to check on my bloods as I have had positive diagnosis of lupus anticoagulant and antiphospholid antibodies in the past and this puts me in a slightly higher risk category for blood clots, etc. than someone without. If they come back positive this time (and they were negative in February) she is going to put me on a low dose of Aspirin.
Even with all this, I can't imagine how I would cope with life without my HRT now and I have only been on it for 3 months but I feel like a completely different person. I have my bad days now and again but they are not anything like as frequent as they used to be and I am coping with what life is throwing at me at the moment much better.
Sorry to ramble but this has been on my mind for a few days now and I wanted to share it with you all.
Libby
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