Hello
Thanks for getting back to me with such a thoughtful reply.
The issue with my bereavement is that I suppressed the grief for 3 years, which resulted in heavy depression/anxiety. I didn’t do this deliberately, and only started to properly process it at the beginning of last year.
I have had a variety of therapies over the years, starting way back when I was a student in the 1980s, my last course right after my dad died. I have taken lots of different medications, and spent a cumulative total of 16 months in psychiatric wards in the 90s. The last admission was the one that turned things around (2001), putting me on a different med combination which I am still taking. Unfortunately, as those with depression and on medication know, this only brings you to a normal baseline; life’s challenges still occur and pitch you into whatever your personal reactions happen to be. It still took another 7 or 8 years before I was able to go back to work (the severity and length of that particular episode was 8 years). I have consistently worked since 2007. I had achieved a really good level of ‘wellness’ by 2019, when the menopause took off in earnest and then my dad died in early 2020. This is a long winded way of saying that I have a good handle on that side of things.
Re. the pumpkin seed oil, it was high grade and pure. Looking at different sources online, including Medline, it seems that it is known for having the (unfortunate) potential for interfering with hormone balance. I have therefore been viewing it as the same/similar to increases/decreases in HRT. I have made various adjustments to this over the years and always suffered a return of symptoms until I have achieved appropriate levels. I am clinging to the hope that 3 weeks’ intake is not sufficient to make any significant changes to my oestrogen/progesterone levels, and I will return to the level I was at prior to taking it.
As I said before, I am beyond angry with myself for not doing any research or consulting my GP before embarking. Even though I know it’s fruitless.
I will take your advice re my hair on board - thanks. I have been looking into wigs/hairpieces too … though I picture myself looking like a combination of Paul Daniels and Terry Wogan ! This would be horrible 😧.
Anyway, thanks again and apologies for the length of my reply. I didn’t write as much for my degree dissertation!
Cheers
Anna.