Hiya! I hope you're ok today. It sounds like you're starting to feel a wee bit better. Just keep celebrating the small wins at this stage. It sounds like you've been through similar phases before so you know how to do this even if it's a bigger hill to climb this time round.
You sound like a really caring, empathetic parent which is all a kid can hope for. Try not to sweat it with the kid, this is one of those brief times when you need to he a bit "selfish," or to use a better term realistic, about how much you have to give. Remember we put our oxygen masks on first, before kids, in an emergency and this is an emergency right now! It's ok to just focus on yourself and let the kiddo know you love them but it's mummy time right now.
You are doing everything right, you've been strong enough to ask for help, you're focused on trying to eat well and get out for those dog walks, you're working on the meds. Take each day as it comes, be patient and kind to yourself, celebrate each little win. You're really unwell right now and deserve some grace.
One thing I want to say at the risk of throwing another spanner in the world is have you ever been assessed for AuDHD? Your pattern of struggling with your mental health and 'burning out' during menopause along with a few other things you mention sound quite like my own journey. ... Just diagnosed with AuDHD at 46. It might be worth looking into when you have a bit more headspace to do so.
You got this.
Thank you for the kind words xxxx
I have a history of anxiety and depression which stems back to my childhood. I am a v sensitive person too. I have always found life difficult and the trauma in childhood has followed me into adulthood.
I get overwhelmed easily and find that when too much is happening at once I am unable to cope. This starts the anxiety off and then can lead to depression if I don't deal with issues quick e.g Ad's.
With the above and then also the onset of peri/meno my body is not coping. My dad has Bipolar and Szichsophrena (can't spell it). Maybe its in the genes. My brother suffers depression too.
I appreciate your advice about ADHD, however I do not feel I have that. Pleased that you got the right diagnosis and help.
I will get some trauma counselling and I do accept all that happened but to have 17 years of trauma and expect to live normal life is unrealistic.
I don't dwell on the past however I just let issues and problems consume me to the extent it affects my mental health.
