Hi Everyone,
This is my first post! And wish I'd found this forum years ago

I'm 53 and have been on hrt for 3 1/2 years, definitely started peri menopause at age 47. I'm in the UK and have struggled with menopause prescriptions the whole time. I use Everol patches and was using Utrogestan tablets but now have a mirena coil.
I Started taking Citalopram anti depressant at 47 to help deal with anxiety due to marriage break up. Citalopram, yoga, meditation served me well for a long time.
I stopped taking Citalopram in November 2023 as I felt it wasn't making any difference and it blunted my emotions. This was probably a mistake.
In April 2023 I started taking Amitryptilene to help with chronic fatigue. OMG what a mistake!!!! I went from sleeping up to 12 hours a day to chronic insomnia and feeling "wired" and very anxious. The doc advised to up the dose - so I did and suffered another "bump" as I adjusted to the dose for a few weeks and it didn't help. By this time my anxiety is through the roof - I'm in coping mode and believe the doc when she said it would help.
I switched Docs and now always talk to the menopause doctor at the surgery. She switched me to Sertraline in September 2023 this didn't work either, suffered a severe bump getting up to a dose of 50mg over a few months, by November 2023 I've written in my diary that I feel suicidal. I was having panic attacks as well. All the while I am in coping mode. Each day is a challenge. I know I need some sort of anti depressant to help but life is hell. The Doc changed me immediately from Sertraline to Venlafaxine. I gradually upped the dose of this to 112.5mg
In December 2023 I changed to the Mirena Coil because Utrogestan tablets made me feel worse around my period time than I ever did before peri menopause. This has only just settled down.
In February 2024 I changed my Everol patch from 75 to 100. Previously doing this had increased my anxiety and a blood test came up as 866 for Oestrogen s I switched back again. Changing up again increased my anxiety and didn't stop the horrendous nights sweats that I started having around 4 months previously. I had a blood test after 5 weeks and my oestrogen was 566. Which seems a good amount as the upper limit is 800 so I'm still on 100 patch.
I saw a psychiatristrist 8 days ago (something I never thought I'd need to do) and he advised me to cut back Venlafaxine and add in Mirtazapine.
So here's where I'm at right now......
Everol Patch 100
Mirena Coil
Venlafaxine 70 mg (cutting down as of 8 days ago)
Mirtazapine 15 mg (started 8 days ago)
The Mirtazapine knocks me out at night (except for one random night of insomia - got one hours sleep) but I CANNOT wake up in the morning, previously waking up at 5am naturally, now wake up with alarm at 7am but feel very woozy and spend 2 hours drifiting around on the internet before I panic and get up. I'm then in fight or flight mode and feeling tense most of the day until I start relaxing around 8pm when I start my bed time routine.
I should add that I'm a naturally thin person and have very severe reactions to starting anti depressants - I usually need to start on less than half the recommend amount for other people. However, Menopause meant that I gradually went from 8.5 stone to 11 stone 2lbs until I started this hideous anti depressant rollercoaster in April 2023 and lost all the weight back again in around 3 months. I would now like to put on a bit more weight.
My questions are: I "think" my hrt are about right for me at the moment - but if anyone has comments on this I'd like to read them

I really don't think Venlfaxine suits me, but I'm already on it and every change I make puts me though increased anxiety hell yet again. Has anyone had a similar experience to this and what was the outcome?
I will stick with trying the Mirtazapine for at least another week, has anyone tried this with Venlafaxine and what did you think?
A friend said she thought there was a blood test that is primarily used in the USA that tests which anti depressants will work for you and which won't. Does this sound familiar to anyone in the UK? - is it possible to get it here and have you managed to get an nhs Doc to interpret the results for you. Has anyone got a link to this and any advice?
..... I'm really sorry this is such a long and complicated post but as you can tell I've been going through hell for a very long time and am coping (because I always will through sheer determination) but really want to sort out this mess.
Thanks for reading and am hoping you can help xx