Hi Flutterby
I was in a similar position earlier this year regarding the anxiety. I felt everything was crashing down on me & couldn't cope with it. It was out of control & I felt over whelmed with everything.
I have always shied away from anti depressants & thought no I can get through this on my own, so I struggled for a few more weeks. By the end of July I had a tel cons with my GP. I emphasised I was not depressed but felt stressed with anxiety & out of control with my life & those around me (the control freak that hides with me
. She listened & offered talking therapy... nah not for me. so then she suggested trying 10mg of Citaolpram for 2 weeks but did warn me it could make me feel very tired to begin with but try & persevere with it. They do & still do make me feel incredibly tired but I am having checks to see if it is anaemia as I have low B12.
It was a struggle to begin with but after 2-3 weeks I was noticing an improvement in my mood. I realised I was not getting so worried about things... so what if I didn't have fresh milk in the fridge, does it really matter that I forgot to put the washing out when I got home from work, OK so what if I had planned to do things on my list but hadn't done them all.... throw away the lists Cazikins !!
After 4 weeks my doc increased to 20mg per day. I couldn't understand the logic in increasing but "whatever" - I had little to lose. Soon after that my mood lifted & I felt better about life for the first time in months. I wasn't worrying about things that were not my problem or not my responsibility. I concentrated on getting myself better & sod it if the people around me didn't like it. As it turned out I did get support from my friends & family but only when I told them how I truly felt.
Give them a try flutterby but don't expect things to return to normal quickly. I keep a diary & score my days out of 10. I was at 4/10 but now feel more like 8/10.
As for the HRT, I did come off them for 3 months last year but the bloody flushes came back so l I'm back on them again (low dose femoston combined) but I cut them in half. It takes off the edge of the hot flushes.
I hope you find something to help you - Citalopram has certainly helped me.
Keep us updated.
Love Cazikins xx