Hi again w, sorry to hear about the meltdown. As you mention experiencing something similar post natally, I wonder if it isn't hormone related? Do you think it might be more to do with the HRT side of things? Although having said that, ADs can help regardless.
I hope the Mirtazapine you are taking is helping somewhat at least. Also hope your doctor doesn't get too titty about your deciding how much or how little to take - sounds like you know what you are doing and it is your body!
As for me, I was using four pumps daily but this week had to negotiate with consultant down to three in order to get the ok to use Vagifem five days a week (and she can go hang, there's enough in a month's supply for six days a week so that's what I'm using
) To be honest, I don't really notice the difference between three or four pumps and probably could even go back to two at some point, but what I do know is that I wouldn't be without it - the HRT is a lifesaver in so many different ways.
Oh and I'm using 100mg Utro daily vaginally (after having read on here that it's the same pill as you take orally) and while I'm not zonking out so much at night I am much less fatigued the next day.
I'd say right now that I'm relatively stable on most fronts, which is nice - amazing the amount of time you can spend researching ways and means to feel better
I do hope you find a good balance yourself, and best of luck with upping your dose xxx
Mum of 2 - good luck to you too xx