Hi Ladies,
I’ve not posted for a long time.
Recently my partner of 20years was diagnosed with cancer, at the base of his tongue and lymph nodes in his neck.
After a very long rollercoaster, he finally started his treatment last week. He is receiving chemotherapy and radiotherapy, the treatment is very aggressive due to stage and size of tumour.
He has a feeding tube and it is highly likely that he will be using this within the next couple of weeks.
I’m still working full time, my employer is giving me the time for appointments, etc. We also have family members that are doing hospital runs too.
However, I’m really struggling, I’m already on AD’s (high dose), I’m just exhausted all the time and my anxiety is through the roof.
It’s becoming so tough for me to see what he is going through and not being able to make him better.
The consultant is optimistic for a good outcome, but although I have support around me, I still feel alone.
If I get emotional, people just say he’s got enough to deal with, don’t let him see you like this or you will give him more stress.
Any kind words or advice would be most welcome.
Thank you
Spangles
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