I woke up crying again today. . I feel so ill.
A year of this.
A year since oopherectomy of using HRT gel
and patches which just dont work. A year of getting worse and worse. I've got an appointment with c and w on October 17th and I'm pinning every hope on it. I probably shouldnt.
It became obvious months ago to my docs that I was simply not absorbing transdermally but they keep sending me away with patches which they know I might as well just be throwing in the bin. They have seen and noted how severe my symptoms are. . My blood levels have just gone down and down. . Why have I been left like this for so long. For the last 6 months now I just keep being told to wait til my appointment with c and w.
I've also been waiting since January for talking therapy.i keep chasing it up but there has been no support offered in the meantime.
My friends and family seem to think HRT is some sort of added bonus so they dont place any importance on the fact it's not working for me.
But I am actually disintegrating.
I feel as though no one cares I wouldnt leave an animal to suffer this way. . I know there are waiting lists and that the docs I have seen have admitted my non absorption is not within the bounds of their expertise but I feel so unsupported by everyone. I feel.like they are just watching me deteriorate. A year is a very long time, it feels like forever when every day is agony.
I see how replacing eastrogen helps others and it's just devastating when you are using HRT and still not getting any eastrogen. Everytime I change my patches I cry with frustration. Thinking why am I even carrying on with this.i have no alternative so I carry on in desperation hoping against hope that I might suddenly start to absorb. When realistically after all this time it's never going to happen.
As you can tell I feel sorry for myself. I feel let down by the people I have turned to for help.particularly the medical profession
I dont feel like I have a single person in my life who understands. Of course I know you ladies on here understand. And that's why I'm able to say how Ii feel. It helps to not feel so alone with it.
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