Hi guys
I don't know if this is hormonal, but I'm struggling a bit at the moment.
It could be a bit of the usual PMS stuff, just amplified. Feeling vulnerable, picked on and a bit paranoid.
But in the background is the feeling of not being ready for another major life upheaval. I already went though one three and a half years ago, when my now ex-husband left (for his much, much younger affair partner. They now have two children together. She got pregnant with their first child 9 months after he left). We had been together 18 years, married 15.
Anyway, I absolutely threw myself into my recovery and, I have to say, it went phenomenally well...better than I ever could have imagined. People were telling me I looked 20 years younger, I looked the picture of health, and some of them didn't even recognise me. My journey through my recovery was all consuming both inside and out. It had to be, it was a question of life or death really - he was an alcoholic and I reckon I had become co-dependent (as well as doing absolutely everything to run my life, his life and our life for many many years).
So I was at the point where I was coasting a bit and enjoying the fruits of all my hard work, enjoying life and enjoying being me. Then I got hit with this perimenopause stuff.
And I feel like I have no energy left to go through something like this now. I really don't. I'm exhausted from everything that's happened.
Does anyone have any words of advice?