Thank you so much for all your kind replies.
And apologies in advance for not replying to everyone's points. I'm really struggling with my mental health as well at the moment.
Yes, I totally mix it up on the exercise front. I walk a lot every day (it's my preferred method of getting places...I don't have a car). I cycle at the gym as well, do weights, go on long walks and mountain walks with my fiancé. Well, I used to be able to do all of that a lot. I think that's one the the reasons my mental health is suffering as well. I can barely walk for 20 minutes before having to find a toilet to change.
Anyway. Another terrible night last night. 3 and a half hours sleep.
I had bad stomach cramps yesterday, like they used to be on the day I got my period when things were normal. I haven't had those for a while.
I felt like I wanted my insides to drop out of me during the night, like they were so full and needed to fall out of me for me to feel better. I had some bad clotting during the night, including one very bad one this morning.
I decided to go back on the Tranexamic Acid, whatever the side effects.I took two this morning and was sick.
Called my GP again, hysterical again.
Now? A couple of hours later? Weirdly I feel not too bad. Like either some of the Tranexamic Acid has gotten into my system and lightened things up a bit? Or the feeling of wanting my insides to fall out and those clots coming out has helped? I feel a bit like a deflated balloon now - in a good way.
On the food front, I had a salmon filled and an avocado mixed together yesterday about 4.00pm and that's it. Nothing at all today so far, and I'm good with that. But I might have a tin of lentil soup about 4.00pm (and noting more). I'm working evenings at the moment, so a little energy for that will help.
Tomorrow my fiancé is coming to visit for the weekend, with his two nephews (6 and 8 years old). We're going out for a pizza in the evening. Depending on how I feel, at the moment I'm thinking I'm not having any cheese on mine and will just eat half of it. He will be very happy to eat the other half (he has a super physically demanding job). That'll be 500 calories tops for me.
He's made some lovely soup for us all for the Saturday, so I'll have a bowl of that at lunch before I go to work for the rest of the day/evening. I'll have an apple between my shifts. And that will do me for Saturday. They're heading off somewhere to do something super energetic.
Sunday he's heading home again with the kids and I'm going to work a double shift, so I reckon we'll have something like a poached eggs and a bagel for breakfast.
Then we're into a new week. And depending on how things go, I might stay at the bowl of soup a day level, or a salmon fillet with some avocado per day level.
If my periods stop (for whatever reason), I'll throw some bread in there and go to the gym for a gentle cycle to try and get things back on a more even keel, mentally.
I feel like I'm living an absolute nightmare at the moment. I just want my life back. I really liked my life, everything I did, and how I felt.
