I was told try 1 pump then 2 but the label says 2 to 3 pumps.
I've to use Uestrogen micronised progesterone from day 15 (200mg):
I'm on 300mg Cyclogest currently so once down to 200mg I'll stop using it and move over to the micronised pills.
I'm sure when I stop taking the progesterone pills I'll hit an all time low as that's the first time in years I will hsve not used Progesterone at all.
Worrying about that but if the other symptoms that are causing me anxiety improve or go away it will be worth it,
You certainly overdid the progesterone. You are bang on the nail now when you said that you are suffering PMS on a kind of permanent scale right now. That's exactly it. You are reducing progesterone and although you have started oestrogen, its a low dose so far and it won't necessarily be able to get to the cell receptors because they were flooded with progesterone. It's good that you have worked up to 2 pumps a day now. When you feel ready to try 3 pumps, try splitting it to 2 in the morning and 1 in the evening. I certainly prefer that, it stops the highs and lows of the hormone from being more extreme.
Oestrogen is not the enemy. It's our life force. We need it in every cell in our body. A lot of crap and damage fell out of the Women's Health Study back in the '90's or whenever it was. Even the study writers have published an official apology to women and explained how the mistakes about oestrogen and cancer came about. The press, as they do, leapt on and misread the study and blasted out everywhere that HRT causes cancer and that was it! Women everywhere going cold-turkey and terrified to continue or start HRT.
Oestrogen protects our bones (women get osteoporosis when their oestrogen levels fall) and our hearts and arteries. It keeps our brain functioning well and makes us feel positive and capable. All the things you have going on at the moment are easily associated with lack of oestrogen and progesterone withdrawal. You are doing the right things to correct that. This sensation problem is to do with nerves either drying out a bit or something else dry rubbing on them. We have a massive number of oestrogen receptors in our vagina and bladder area. If any of them dry out a bit sensations will change. Many menopausal women think they have cystitis, it feels just the same, but it's not, it's lack of oestrogen. The oestrogen should help to plump things back up a bit and take that sensation away.
I get hissing in my ears, probably from my hypothyroidism, if I focus on it, listen for it, it seems really loud and intrusive and gets on my nerves fast. But most of the time I don't focus on it or listen for it and it doesn't bother me at all. You must stop focussing on your issues/sensations and look outward to other things, take the focus out to a more distant point rather than right inside your body. If the ear hissing gets to me I put the radio on and listen to music and I can't hear it and I'll forget about it.
You said you had to go out yesterday and you felt so much better you sang to the radio! That tells you so much about how your body really is feeling. It's your mind that's making things worse by being so self-focussed. You should not have gone back to bed when you got home. You have to stop the bed thing. I said yesterday you must get up every morning at the same time, wash, dress and then go downstairs. Force yourself to do it. No going back up to bed at all until it's bed time. If you even think about it, give yourself a talking too. Put that radio on and sing. Find a cupboard to clean out or a door that needs painting. Small but involved tasks. Switch the focus. Do it for a week and you are almost over the bed thing. Then it's on to the dog walking. You don't need a dog walker. You need to be outside twice a day. They are only little dogs, they don't need to go far.
This is a time of life where we can wallow or we can carry on. It's not a fight. It's dogged determination to keep going. You are on the right track now. You are getting some of the hormone you need, but it will take a while to settle in. You spent years forcing oestrogen down. While you wait you need not to wallow. Working alone is an issue. I have it too. But I work from a small warehouse and office that I drive to each day. If you find being at home to work too wishy washy as far as motivation and focus goes, can you go somewhere else to work each day? Even if it were to the library? Or rent a small office somewhere or a hot desk? It makes a difference to go to work. You must never try to do any work in bed or in PJ's. Always get dressed. Put earrings in, perfume on. It is the simple things that make such a difference at this time in life. I live in the country. My neighbour, and others around here, get through this time because they have horses. Horses need to be tended everyday all weathers, and no one can do it for them. They have to get up, out and focussed and it helps them all. I can see that.
I sound so bossy, I'm sorry about that. But sometimes we need to be bossed a bit. Too much thinking is bad. So today - off the iPad and outside with the dogs. As soon as you possibly can. Surprise your husband with a nice meal tonight, served at the table if you have one. Have a lovely day!
What a lovely thoughtful reply. Not bossy at all. I
need that , it's what my mum would have told me.
I wish I could hire you as a life coach ! 😊
Can you visit me every day and tell the above to my face.? Lol
I wish I had a real life friend like you. Not fair to want a friend just in a time of crisis though is it.
I have tinnitus too in my left ear. My eardrum burst following an infection about 10 years ago. It's whistling all the time at the moment... probably due to stress. I notice it more when it's quiet but it doesn't get to me.
I appreciate your advise, I need that. I have an older sister by 7 years but she's got her busy business and daughters plus she's so much older than me for all intents and purposes, I was an only child so we are not close and total opposites in many ways. We chat on Facebook but that's as good as it gets.
I find myself wishing I had a mother figure a lot these days or a big sister.
I feel like a lost and afraid child... like a want my mum, I'm almost 50! I guess that inner child is always there when we are vulnerable.
Mums no longer able to be there in a crisis she's too old and the stress of it upsets her too much she's vulnerable herself she's struggling with end of life anxiety which we are not allowed to talk to her about so we can't talk about her issues or our own which makes for a very polite and false conversation.
In many ways she's already gone which sounds terrible but it's true.. mum is a shadow of her former self.
I understand her ways of coping now I'm older but she's always hidden behind dad when I had a crisis in life and needed her, but I never understand the reasons and thought she didn't love me from my teens to my 30s.
I would telephone ☎️ and Dad would pick up and say “
what do you want her for?†and I couldn't speak with her.
I digress but that caused a lot of damage to me as I saw it as rejection which had a devastating effect on my self worth and life choices. I had hoped we would one day be able to talk about it and I could explain how it hurt me but she's not one for reflecting on the past.
I find myself looking for a mother figure not actively but thinking about how I wish I had someone who could
Anyway I digress. I think I feel so alone with this and whilst I've always been alone and happy in being so, now I regret not making more effort in making connections.
I had started to do that a little by inving my neighbour on my dog walks. She's 10 years older than me but at our age it doesn't mean much.
Now there's a strong woman. Widowed in her early 40s suddenly, never remarried or had another relationship, is fiercely independent, goes to the gym, power waking, tons of friends, goes to lots of places in the uk and remote locations in the world... truly admire her... total opposite to me.
Before all this happened I just knocked on her door and invited her to come on a walk and she was over the moon.
Community is an old fashioned concept now isn't it? I live on a detached house estate and everyone keeps to themselves, too busy.
I have a daughter and grand children but I had my daughter at 17 shotgun wedding and couldn't cope... asked my mum if I could come home with her and was told “no, you've made your bed now lie in itâ€
So I asked her father (who had gone back to his parents) to come and collect her for a while as I needed time to get my head together. He did and I never asked for her back.
I lived a turbulent life following, known as the mum who gave her baby up I fell into abusive relationships and recreational drugs... I basically had no self worth.
We are in touch but there's no bond there. I spent four years trying to court her by sending money and expense gifts and flowers but she would not let me spend real time with her only on Facebook. After the birth of her first child I asked if I could come and visit once a month and she told me she only let me see the baby out of politeness and declined my request.
It's okay, I made a decision and I lived my life without the stress of bringing up a baby and it's not fair to now want her back just because I'm older and life is not as full anymore. We are in touch but more like cousins.
Sorry this has turned into a bit of a personal diary input. 😳
I've started spotting this morning I'm a week late for my period and gave up thinking it would come since I started the oestrogen a week ago.
It's
always a relief to see blood after a dark patch as that explains why I've been so down.
I'll stop googling I'll get up and get dressed and ask my hubby to go for a drive or at least I'll try...
Thank you for reading and responding. Wouldn't it be great if this forum was real like a place we could all meet up once a week. I think I'd get out of bed for that !