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EnglishRose

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How do I stop health anxiety? I’ve convinced myself.
« on: October 20, 2018, 09:41:38 PM »

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This is an intimate thread

I've totally convinced myself I've got a rare nerve disorder which is not treatable as such and women have committed suicide from having to live with it with no hope and people laughing at them as it's of an intimate nature

Bottom line I found out about PGAD on the same day I had some mild but weird symptoms to my lady bits. I couldn't find any other possible causes. I no longer know if my symptoms are real or from my imagination as I'm so hyper aware of my body and so anxiety riddled I'm a mess.

I also hsve a sense of shivers to my lower back, legs and back .. but not from cold.. just a feeling of hypersensitive skin when my clothes move over my skin in those areas I feel shivery sensation

In addition to the above My appetite is insatiable for food my stomach churns and twists demanding to be fed whilst my mind is truly not interested due to anxiety and depression.

Added to that about a week after the twinges to my bits started my libido is insane I've never in my life experienced the literal need for sex. I haven't even had sex for 6 years never gave it a second thought ... now just the briefest mental image or a certain word or sitting on my partners lap and my heart rate goes up and I am aching (not literally) for sex.
I've NEVER had such a strong physical desire in my life and it's truly terrifying because I'm not familiar wth it and it's like my body is ignoring my mind.
There have been episodes were my heart rate increases and I'm aching for sex..I just lie on my bed on my side but this feeling can last 2 hours.

I've been peeing 20 times a day for years I've had tests for the usual all clear.. I have symptoms of VA albeit not as bad as some ladies symptoms
My walls are thinner with watery discharge for 5 years. I've had burning sensation to my vula for a few hours just one night and i also get pain inside me mostly to my cervix. When ever I get a swab or Pap smear it hurts like hell bleeds and I get cramping.

I've had sex with my partner twice and I'm glad for that .. but he can't keep up with my needs. So had to buy some toys

All of the above might sound comical and please don't tell me I'm lucky because I don't feel lucky. I'm clinically depressed and not able to work  spend my days on my bed just googling symptoms trying to find other women like me, l

I've found 5 who had the sensations to their V without any reason or cause and they ALL told me it went it was consideredly improved once they got their oestrogen back up from rock bottom.

My own oestrogen is actually minus 18. I've been applying way too much natural progesterone for many years so I'm Progesterone dominant with a FHS of 70

My anxiety about what I'm feeling where it's going to go and if I'm going to end up like some of those poor women has reduced me the a ghost of the person I used to be.
I no longer interact with my puppy I'm crying depressed and terrified.

I want me back... I want to feel like my future is worth living because all I think now is I'd rather die than live with PGAD

I've been to my own doctor twice and she said she'd never heard of symptoms of arousal type sensations without subjective stimulation or natural desire and I paid to see a private gyno who literally laughed at me saying how it's usually the other way around with meno... women lose their libido.

That's were I was up until 3 weeks ago then all hell broke loose.

I've heard of the sex surge but this started off more like PGAD and has turned into sex surge symptoms so I'm conflicted whether to embrace the surge and increased libido ... but then there is a warning to not masterbate if you have PGAD as it irritates the nerve making it worse

I'm sorry to those ladies who have already read my posts but the anxiety and depression has reached a all time low... I've stopped working stopped laughing stopped living just desperate to be told I'm normal.. or that it can be resolved by getting my oestrogen back up,

I've reduced my Progesterone by 100mg  two weeks ago and going through withdrawal he'll currently which only adds to the depression and anxiety. I'm truly desperate to get told I'm ok...
Have another gyno appt in November but have little confidence I'll be taken seriously

I'm open to common sense replies even if that means telling me I need to get a grip,

Sorry for the ramble
« Last Edit: October 21, 2018, 02:50:27 PM by roseenglish »
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Re: How do I reclaim my mind from health anxiety ?
« Reply #1 on: October 20, 2018, 11:09:47 PM »

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time right now.

I can't believe the doctors didn't listen...but at the same time I can.  :( I feel like we aren't taken seriously too often.

I do think your anxiety is triggering some of it....I think the sensations are there but the anxiety makes them feel stronger than the are because of how aware you are? I can't say honestly as I'm not you.

Years ago I went through a time when I so desperately wanted sex. I can't remember when it was or around what time honestly. A lot of what you say sounds familiar.... it really didn't take much to get me in the mood. (felt like I was almost constantly ready to go) I was younger and hubby was younger so it worked out at the time. I think it was due to some hormonal change at the time but can't say for sure. It went away and its hard to ever have a desire to have sex anymore.  :'(

I'm sure that's not quite what the same as what you are dealing with or very comforting. I know it can be frustrating though feeling just constantly there but even after orgasm not having the feeling go away.

I would put it up to hormones and probably some nerves being a bit sensitive (mis-firing) right now. Hormone issues can cause the nerves to go all weird too. and With you have VA and just everything being thinner, the nerves are most likely closer to the surface and easier to irritate.

Are you on oestrogen right now?

I think you'll be okay. I think it'll pass and everything when you get your hormones figured out. Try to breathe and relax and don't beat yourself up for how you are feeling right now.

Sorry if I'm not much help. I'm new to all this.

Hope you do feel better soon though.
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« Reply #2 on: October 21, 2018, 09:07:09 AM »

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time right now.

I can't believe the doctors didn't listen...but at the same time I can.  :( I feel like we aren't taken seriously too often.

I do think your anxiety is triggering some of it....I think the sensations are there but the anxiety makes them feel stronger than the are because of how aware you are? I can't say honestly as I'm not you.

Years ago I went through a time when I so desperately wanted sex. I can't remember when it was or around what time honestly. A lot of what you say sounds familiar.... it really didn't take much to get me in the mood. (felt like I was almost constantly ready to go) I was younger and hubby was younger so it worked out at the time. I think it was due to some hormonal change at the time but can't say for sure. It went away and its hard to ever have a desire to have sex anymore.  :'(

I'm sure that's not quite what the same as what you are dealing with or very comforting. I know it can be frustrating though feeling just constantly there but even after orgasm not having the feeling go away.

I would put it up to hormones and probably some nerves being a bit sensitive (mis-firing) right now. Hormone issues can cause the nerves to go all weird too. and With you have VA and just everything being thinner, the nerves are most likely closer to the surface and easier to irritate.

Are you on oestrogen right now?

I think you'll be okay. I think it'll pass and everything when you get your hormones figured out. Try to breathe and relax and don't beat yourself up for how you are feeling right now.

Sorry if I'm not much help. I'm new to all this.

Hope you do feel better soon though.

Thank you for replying 😊
Actually the two times we did have sex I was fine after. Happier and satisfied. But I think I would need to have it at least once a day .. he's 48 works in a high stress job and his sex drive dwindled along with mine presumably due to testosterone or lack of it for him.

The biggest frustration that is causing me so much anxiety is how unusual it is to have sensations to your bits without mental desire... each time I ask a doctor , gyno or menopause nurse I get a blank stare they shrug their shoulders and this makes me think “ then it must be PGAD as it's very rare”
Of course it's quite probable women get it and say nothing. Apparently women won't go to their doctors with symptoms of VA or incontinance or lack of sex drive or indeed anything that involves their vagina out of shame or embarrassment.
I wish I was the type that just didn't obsess about it... just let it be...but I've discovered a horrible rare condition and that is all I think about when i feel anything down below.

There's a lady from this forum who PMs me she had it too along with shivers and tingles to her hair head. She said it took a long time for her to talk about it and whilst she's better now since her oestrogen has been upped. Don't think she had a libido with it though.
she doesn't like to talk about it or go back thinking of it, probably bc like me anxiety was a huge factor. She too was laughed at when she mentioned it to her gyno.
Interestingly she self addmitted herself to a phsyc ward for 3 months due to her anxiety in general when her memo peri menopause kicked in.

The other ladies were far more relaxed about it one knew it was hormones bc she experienced it during her pregnancy and one lady actually likes it makes her feel sexy.

I feel better that with it I also have an annoying increase in appetite for for food and sex.. that tells me there's a hormonal link there.

I've got some Vagifem pessaries which I haven't started to use yet. Hoping they will help.
Perhaps like pain, it's a sign of thinning skin and more raw nerves in general and getting my walls plumped back up will get rid of it.

It's not that bad so far.. no pain or sensations that truly hurt...it's more about the effect it's having on my mental health from worry.

I've read a thread here about a poor lady who couldn't sit or work due to pain to her clitorus she was in such a bad way, true pain... all the time pain.. they decided from her symptoms it was the pudendal nerve (same nerve involved in PGAD) only for her there was no arousal just pain.
I read it with absolute fear. But I can't compare my symptoms to that poor lady, it's a mild but annoying sensation that doesn't come from sexual desire.

I even joined some PGAD groups but had to leave bc I couldn't take reading their stories or symptoms it was fuelling the fire.

I believe it can be a symptom from VA but have yet to hear from a lady who can admit this. Some have obvious visible signs such as no hood to the clitoris so that can cause exposure and irritation for obvious reasons . Mine doesn't appear to hsve any visible cause..

I hate my anxiety it's been the longest darkest 3 weeks of my life and all I need is for it to go away or for someone to tell me they've treat and cured women with similar symptoms
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Re: How do I stop health anxiety? I’ve convinced myself.
« Reply #3 on: October 21, 2018, 09:38:23 AM »

WHOA!

Anxiety can really turn our heads inside out!

Reading the web can turn our heads inside out!

Why haven't you used the product prescribed by your GP, what's to lose?  If you have the start of vaginal atrophy then treatment will ease dryness, soreness, the need to pee ............ there are many nerve endings in that region which can be annoyed by various symptoms.

Your depression also needs addressing.  The brain is an organ which requires nourishment as does the rest of the body, because it's 'out of sight, out of mind', it often gets forgotten.

When you are hungry do you eat? 
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Re: How do I stop health anxiety? I’ve convinced myself.
« Reply #4 on: October 21, 2018, 11:50:50 AM »

I've just started vagifem today.  :) actually as I'm writing this.. lol

Yes I eat when I'm hungry it won't go away otherwise but I don't enjoy food anymore I just shove sandwiches in my mouth and swallow to make the hunger pangs go away.

The anxiety has defo lead to depression and I can't rationalise anything anymore it's all worst case scenario. Any new feeling or hint of anything down below and I fall apart.. its catastrophic thinking.

I no longer look at PGAD info it's all depressing and I don't want to believe that's what's happening I'm not even suffering that badly no intense pain or even intense arousal just an on off physical awareness of my V hard to describe.

I get hormonal surges not sure if it's adrenaline or testosterone but my heart pounds and I can get an intense need for sex at the same time as bizarre as that sounds... sometimes I get the surge without the sexual desire.

Sometimes I can get that way just thinking about sex ...and it has nothing to do with any sensations below... my libido is terrifying at times... like some monster that takes over me and I need sex, if my hubby was around I would tell him to get in bed... not at all normal.

I can't imagine how women live if their libido was normally that intense. ..

It's all very alien to me.. and it scares me,

I'm also getting sciatica pain and dull back ache across my upper bottom
Not sure if sciatica can affect the pelvis...

Argh!!! It's the “not knowing “ that makes me miserable
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« Reply #5 on: October 21, 2018, 12:35:39 PM »

It's amazing what anxiety and hormones do to our bodies.

I don't enjoy food anymore either. Plus the anxiety...and now anxiety over everything I eat as I'm not sure what will agree with me these days...so I'm still losing weight. I know, a problem many wish they had, but I really do miss just enjoying food. And having control over the weight (or at least what I thought was control even though before it kept gaining without my permission too).

Have you thought about maybe getting a chiropractic adjustment? Maybe get some pressure off those nerves in your lower back?

I think if you feel satisfied after, you are good. (Isn't not being satisfied or it coming back very quickly one if those PGAD symptoms?) You might just be getting a rev-up right now with whatever the hormones are doing. Try not to get too anxious over it.

I've had times when I had a sex drive like that (or worse!). I didn't mind it all. But I had a high sex drive anyways so it wasn't a big deal for me. So my crashing, never want it for months, drive is pretty depressing actually (it's been a couple years of that even before the anxiety started).

I hope the vagifem helps.

My health anxiety seems to be pick and choose. I'm stressed massively about my heart and my legs...but I was told I have odd growths on my ovaries and I'm not really worried about it. (Honestly just believe it's the endometriosis coming back) I'm more concerned about getting my hormones figured out so I can feel okay again. Because seriously like they'll be able to get me to have any kind of operation in the state I'm in anyways.
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Re: How do I stop health anxiety? I’ve convinced myself.
« Reply #6 on: October 21, 2018, 12:49:10 PM »

Anxiety ruled my Life from age 3 some days worse than others.  I would dream about the phobia  :'( so there was no respite.

Anti-anxiety medication, a Betablocka and an AD really help. 

I learned to graze to keep those pangs away.  Maybe try that, eating every 3 hours ......... DH bulk cooks curry etc. so that there's always something 'to hand', as it de-frosts the rice is cooking  ;)
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« Reply #7 on: October 21, 2018, 12:49:25 PM »

Hi Rose I suffered from something similar a few years ago in that it felt like because I had so many antibiotics which in turn caused recurring thrush and of course I was so itchy and rubbing rather than scratching which would then make me want to continue rubbing till orgasm was achieved but felt no relief then I'd try and ignore but was always raring to go again at any point.i really do feel for you.all I can add is it did disappear once I'd got the urinary/V.A  symptoms under control which took a lot of patience and perseverance and I'm now at the opposite end of the scale where I now have none or very little inclination.why don't you go to a good pelvic floor physio I have just found a cracking lady in Bedford Victoria Muir have a Google or try Louise Newsons new practice she has a pelvic floor specialist who works from the new clinic.if they're not near enough for you they can probably recommend someone local to you it has to be a pelvic floor specialist not just a physio.they are used to dealing with this daily trust me and. just to add, your back pain is all part and parcel of this.Its not a nice situation for you and I think if you speak to one if these specialists ladies they'll help with your anxiety levels too so you don't feel so alone because your not.good luck do a bit of research then try this route you've nothing to loose.xx
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« Reply #8 on: October 21, 2018, 02:24:55 PM »

Hi Rose I suffered from something similar a few years ago in that it felt like because I had so many antibiotics which in turn caused recurring thrush and of course I was so itchy and rubbing rather than scratching which would then make me want to continue rubbing till orgasm was achieved but felt no relief then I'd try and ignore but was always raring to go again at any point.i really do feel for you.all I can add is it did disappear once I'd got the urinary/V.A  symptoms under control which took a lot of patience and perseverance and I'm now at the opposite end of the scale where I now have none or very little inclination.why don't you go to a good pelvic floor physio I have just found a cracking lady in Bedford Victoria Muir have a Google or try Louise Newsons new practice she has a pelvic floor specialist who works from the new clinic.if they're not near enough for you they can probably recommend someone local to you it has to be a pelvic floor specialist not just a physio.they are used to dealing with this daily trust me and. just to add, your back pain is all part and parcel of this.Its not a nice situation for you and I think if you speak to one if these specialists ladies they'll help with your anxiety levels too so you don't feel so alone because your not.good luck do a bit of research then try this route you've nothing to loose.xx

Thanks for replying 😋
And thank you for sharing your experience.
I am not itchy at all.
I've rarely had thrush always in my 20s and it was glaringly obvious from the thick discharge and itching.
I do have watery discharge for several years and I've since learned that is a symptom of VA.
I just assumed my v was drying up with age, plus I would feel little air bubbles escaping me just before my period which I knew meant the walls of my v were getting thin too.

Have stabbing pains to my cervix again before my period for years I just thought instead of normal period pain it now moved to my cervix.

Any physical exam my cervix hurts like hell and bleeds and I get cramps after.

Had a few hours of exterior burning to my vulva and bottom skin last week for the first time.

I've read stories here of the true pain women have experienced with exposed clitoris from atrophy and I'm truly not at all that bad ..

It's the not knowing coupled with my health anxiety that's caused depression.
The private gyro who laughed saying how he'd never heard of my symptoms and implying I was lucky as most women lose their feeling and libido.. like it's a competition.

I live in north uk I do have a local nhs hospital that seems to offer women's PT
Do you think think they would be knowledgable ?

Here's the link

https://www.lancsteachinghospitals.nhs.uk/womens-health-outpatients-therapy-services
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« Reply #9 on: October 21, 2018, 02:42:15 PM »

It's amazing what anxiety and hormones do to our bodies.

I don't enjoy food anymore either. Plus the anxiety...and now anxiety over everything I eat as I'm not sure what will agree with me these days...so I'm still losing weight. I know, a problem many wish they had, but I really do miss just enjoying food. And having control over the weight (or at least what I thought was control even though before it kept gaining without my permission too).

Have you thought about maybe getting a chiropractic adjustment? Maybe get some pressure off those nerves in your lower back?

I think if you feel satisfied after, you are good. (Isn't not being satisfied or it coming back very quickly one if those PGAD symptoms?) You might just be getting a rev-up right now with whatever the hormones are doing. Try not to get too anxious over it.

I've had times when I had a sex drive like that (or worse!). I didn't mind it all. But I had a high sex drive anyways so it wasn't a big deal for me. So my crashing, never want it for months, drive is pretty depressing actually (it's been a couple years of that even before the anxiety started).

I hope the vagifem helps.

My health anxiety seems to be pick and choose. I'm stressed massively about my heart and my legs...but I was told I have odd growths on my ovaries and I'm not really worried about it. (Honestly just believe it's the endometriosis coming back) I'm more concerned about getting my hormones figured out so I can feel okay again. Because seriously like they'll be able to get me to have any kind of operation in the state I'm in anyways.

Yes see, I wanted to reach out to ladies who had naturally high sex drive either past or present just to see if what I'm experiencing is comparable.
I'm not like that all or everyday but it appears like hormonal surges play a part.
The intense attacks for want of a better word come from no where...heart beats faster first... then it moves into a cross between a hot flush / anxiety attack/ acute arousal were i feel like I need intercourse which to me is terrifying... I've never given in to those surges just lead down waited for them to pass... but it scares the crap out of me as it's purely physical
More recently I can just be talking or thinking about it and can trigger one of those intense episodes some less intense than others sometimes I just feel really horny. Sex is more satisfying than solo missions which leave me feeling hollow and sad or anxious.
Sounds like fun but coming after zero drive almost my entire life with the exception of honeymoon periods with new partners... I feel like I've been possessed by some horny poltergeist lol
It's not me.
The sensations I get below are mild and annoying they don't make me crave anything but for them to go away,
Thanks again it does help to hear and compare other people's experiences
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« Reply #10 on: October 21, 2018, 02:56:44 PM »

The fact that you experience bleeding and discomfort after internal exam is telling you that you probably do have V.A that needs treating so as previously advised by clkd do a full 14 night load of the vagifem your gp gave you.you will probably feel some relief after 3/ 4 days ,if your as sore as you are it'll work pretty quickly.
It's good that you have access to this type if help as in woman's health physio but if nhs they may not be able to give you the time that a private consultation would it depends on the stresses on your area.ie is it super busy.the biofeedback is good because that'll help to teach you by inserting an instrument inside then showing you on a screen which muscles you need to be using when doing the pelvic floor exercises it's actually a big problem that women struggle with as they can't always picture the muscles involved so that would be a good start for you if you can get a referral.I don't know what like these ladies would be with the info you want to share with them in order to get the help you need and until you go you won't know either so don't despair if you are unsuccessful with this route you tried and it wasn't to be so don't get anxious again just say ok now I have to try plan b and go down the other route I've told you about.the nhs is under such strains it just can't devote the time each of us feel we need and that's why many of us choose to go private.you may be lucky my lady was an nhs practitioner for 20 years before going private like many of them.her goal with me now is to strengthen the pelvic floor so that I avoid the need for surgery and remove the fear of nookie for me because the v.a made me so uptight about penetration and yet she can gently work inside me to release these trapped and tight muscles which could be all you need to take the pressure of the nerves along with the vagifem to plump up your tissues again.sorry if I'm sounding a know all but I'm trying to simplify and reassure you purely by my own experiences.its an option for you to explore then do what your comfy with and I wish you the best of luck dont let it defeat you theres always an answer out there xxD.D
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« Reply #11 on: October 21, 2018, 03:09:41 PM »


Are you on oestrogen right now?

Sorry missed your question

I was prescribed Tribolone which is a steroid that kicks starts our bodies to create oestrogen progesterone and androgens. Should only be prescribed to women 12 month post meno.
I researched it after 3 days use and stopped taking it as I already have way too much progesterone and androgens is what increases libido. It's a HRT that is known to give women their libido back, so last thing I needed
So then I did some reading and asked for patches Everole 25 I think they're called , used them for 5 days and panicked. I had also dropped my progesterone by 100mg and prog at high doses over long term is known to be addictive. It attaches to the same gaba receptors that benzodiazepines do.
Long story short, I felt best to let the prog reduction run it's course then get advise from a gyno in Nov as to how I should proceed with both existing prog use and introduction of an oestrogen.

 
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« Reply #12 on: October 21, 2018, 03:24:58 PM »

The fact that you experience bleeding and discomfort after internal exam is telling you that you probably do have V.A that needs treating so as previously advised by clkd do a full 14 night load of the vagifem your gp gave you.you will probably feel some relief after 3/ 4 days ,if your as sore as you are it'll work pretty quickly.
It's good that you have access to this type if help as in woman's health physio but if nhs they may not be able to give you the time that a private consultation would it depends on the stresses on your area.ie is it super busy.the biofeedback is good because that'll help to teach you by inserting an instrument inside then showing you on a screen which muscles you need to be using when doing the pelvic floor exercises it's actually a big problem that women struggle with as they can't always picture the muscles involved so that would be a good start for you if you can get a referral.I don't know what like these ladies would be with the info you want to share with them in order to get the help you need and until you go you won't know either so don't despair if you are unsuccessful with this route you tried and it wasn't to be so don't get anxious again just say ok now I have to try plan b and go down the other route I've told you about.the nhs is under such strains it just can't devote the time each of us feel we need and that's why many of us choose to go private.you may be lucky my lady was an nhs practitioner for 20 years before going private like many of them.her goal with me now is to strengthen the pelvic floor so that I avoid the need for surgery and remove the fear of nookie for me because the v.a made me so uptight about penetration and yet she can gently work inside me to release these trapped and tight muscles which could be all you need to take the pressure of the nerves along with the vagifem to plump up your tissues again.sorry if I'm sounding a know all but I'm trying to simplify and reassure you purely by my own experiences.its an option for you to explore then do what your comfy with and I wish you the best of luck dont let it defeat you theres always an answer out there xxD.D

Don't apologise! Your feedback has been a tonic my anxiety has reduced significantly as I was just seeing no other causes to what appears to be a rare symptom. Pain people get and understand but the other even though it's caused by the same nerves tends to make people uncomfortable or not treat it seriously
I have spent 18 years sat at a pc like Buddha (lotus position) for several hours a day, terrible posture hunched over ... none of the above surprises me. Oestrogen declines as mine has and so does the support of muscle ligaments bones etc..
I'm lucky I can afford private treatment judt struggling to find a woman's PT who specilises in pelvic floor.
The last thing I want to do is have someone experimenting on me..I need someone who knows about hypertonic muscles and I'll kmow when I speak with them.
I live in Lancashire it seems most of the specialists are down south.
Thank you again for being candid and honest xxx means the world ❤️
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« Reply #13 on: October 21, 2018, 03:29:42 PM »

Anxiety ruled my Life from age 3 some days worse than others.  I would dream about the phobia  :'( so there was no respite.

Anti-anxiety medication, a Betablocka and an AD really help. 

I learned to graze to keep those pangs away.  Maybe try that, eating every 3 hours ......... DH bulk cooks curry etc. so that there's always something 'to hand', as it de-frosts the rice is cooking  ;)

Thank you
Yes it's strange how I've gone from being able to eat nothing but breakfast all day till dinner then munch on rubbish all night to having to each every few hours now regardless of if I fancy anything ...
I eat now bc my body is making me not bc my mind fancies a certain food.
Odd.
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« Reply #14 on: October 21, 2018, 05:12:56 PM »


Yes see, I wanted to reach out to ladies who had naturally high sex drive either past or present just to see if what I'm experiencing is comparable.
I'm not like that all or everyday but it appears like hormonal surges play a part.
The intense attacks for want of a better word come from no where...heart beats faster first... then it moves into a cross between a hot flush / anxiety attack/ acute arousal were i feel like I need intercourse which to me is terrifying... I've never given in to those surges just lead down waited for them to pass... but it scares the crap out of me as it's purely physical
More recently I can just be talking or thinking about it and can trigger one of those intense episodes some less intense than others sometimes I just feel really horny. Sex is more satisfying than solo missions which leave me feeling hollow and sad or anxious.
Sounds like fun but coming after zero drive almost my entire life with the exception of honeymoon periods with new partners... I feel like I've been possessed by some horny poltergeist lol
It's not me.
The sensations I get below are mild and annoying they don't make me crave anything but for them to go away,
Thanks again it does help to hear and compare other people's experiences
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When mine was really high, I would wake my hubby up in the middle of the night because it would wake me up! He didn't mind it so much back then. If that drive suddenly came back, I don't know what I would do...be shocked I'm sure. Hubby as well. If I had never had it before, it would probably scare me. Sometimes I do hope for it to come back a bit (not to my really high times) but to a more normal level. It's definitely hormone related and I think when your progesterone gets back down and you can get the balance with the oestrogen that the drive will go down as well. Every now and then I'll get the want...but it's like once a month the last couple months. Better than never like it was I guess.

And I envy your appetite right now! I need that! I wish I had it right now....
I wonder if your testosterone levels took a jump??
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