CLKD... I'e been OK, the thing is, I feel absolutely normal and at the moment I'm just doing the things I always do, go shopping, dog walking etc. The problems start if I need treatment because it zaps the life out of you doesn't it? People always look fine before they start treatment and then go down hill quickly for a while. I haven't been thinking about quite so much (although the middle of the night is a real pain as I can't sleep and I go over everything in my mind - over and over and over.. ) I forget about it for a few hours and then it comes back to me and I have a real panic but I keep telling myself to worry about it when it happens. On saying all of this, I might well have myself dead and buried tomorrow! There is no continuity to it! Thanks for asking you lovely woman you xxx