Hi ladies! Thank you all so much for your help and support. Today has kinda been ok. I can tell my dose is needed though now at nearly tea time. I'm glad I dropped to 1 pump last night as I was fast turning into a gibbering wreck and I have been calmer today.
I have been discussing this with Hubby. We are going to insist on tests being done to check my levels. This guessing is just nuts! Apparently, this particular Consultant is a bit notorious for not putting ladies who have had everything removed on HRT. He doesn't like it at all! He actually told me if I walk enough, this should be sufficient to protect my bone density when I saw him in clinic at my 3 month review. I was rather dumbfounded to say the least.
When I had my surgery, it was all such a rush. I had the scan, and had the surgery 3 weeks later. To top it all, I had just buried my Dad a few days prior to getting the scan and was feeling really vulnerable emotionally. It all came as a huge shock all at once! I did have the presence of mind to ask both the Consultant and clinic nurse at that time about what would happen after surgery regarding HRT. The nurse I remember said 'ohhh, you probably won't need it'! I have no idea what kind of racket their running at that particular Gynaecology department but all I can say is that I had to self refer to the menopause clinic as the Consultant wasn't going to help, and my GP didn't have a clue about HRT - the lady GP I saw said she wasn't 'clued up' on starting doses in someone 'in my position. To say it's been a hellish year is an understatement!
MaryG, I think you're right about the dose you suggested every 12 hours. This is going to be my next step once ive had a few days to 'wash out' and calm myself a bit. I got the feeling that I was getting a big surge from doing 2 pumps at night, and then it was running out. The feeling was like being on a rollercoaster! I agree with you and Hurdity that 1 is very probably not enough to protect my bones etc.
I must admit, both Hubby and I are getting a bit emotional about all this now. He is seriously wanting to kick someone's backside, I can tell you! He's been brilliant the last year, but I know it's been tough on him too. He worries when he is at work if I am doing ok, and I've really been trying my hardest to cope and he says that he knows I have. He also says that he feels I have been made so anxious about going on HRT, that this might be a factor in how I'm feeling right now and I think he's right. When the 'expert' keeps telling you no, you wonder if you're going against them and it's a bad idea. I've been under this Consultant for 10 years, seeing him approximately every 6 months as I had a complex Gynae history due to previous surgeries, multiple complex cysts, extensive adhesions etc. I thought he 'had my back', but it doesn't feel that way now I must admit!