Many years ago when mailing lists were in fashion (in the mid 90's) I started a list for cancer patients, their friends and families. I was diagnosed myself with
cervical cancer around the same time and needed an outlet that didn't include my own family and friends. It didn't take long to realise that I was not the only
one who had problems talking to my loved ones about my own fears and worries around the disease, and I had more than 500 members at one point.
You mentioned in another post that you were feeling just fine with no symptoms and that it almost made you feel a bit bad. One of the members I had on my list was
diagnosed with ovarian cancer and she described the same thing. No symptoms and since she knew that ovarian cancer was suppose to be (and usually are) very
painful and difficult to handle, she was filled with guilt about her own situation since her life didn't change much.
To me cancer was a trip of a lifetime that I don't want to do again, however being a survivor also made me realise that a diagnose doesn't always mean that there is
no way back. But yes, it's a shock when you sit there with your doc and hear him/her say the C word. Personally I can't remember a word that was said to me that
day and I regret that I left my best friend sitting in the waiting room when the treatment was discussed. I had my diagnose over the phone (which was against their
own regulations I found out later) a couple of days earlier.
I hope your trip to Greece will give you some time off all this. Sometimes a change of scenery can be a good thing
Take care,
Christa
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