Funny, I was only thinking today, that I will never be the person I was three years ago, I won't ever come through it, so to speak, I will always be like this, for perhaps the next thirty years! And that is because, as I have mentioned many times, not having read the textbooks, my body decided 18 months after my last period, to throw every PHYSICAL menopause symptom at me, literally overnight. How can that ever go away, how can atrophy stop, it's already damaged everything, how can my tight pelvis ever come back, it's physically impossible, how can my digestion ever be normal again, the pelvic muscles are too tight to allow the digestive tract to process food. I never had the sweats or flushes that will disappear over the 5 - 10 years of normal menopause, I wish I had sometimes. I did have dreadful uncontrolled anxiety, which is controlled by drugs and hrt, the one "normal" symptom, maybe that will go away eventually, the others won't. So, how do we cope with long term, forever symptoms? We are not ill, so normal counselling and Talking Therapy won't help, do we just "put up and shut up"? How did women before us cope, were they stronger than us? I don't know the answer, but all suggestions would be gratefully received!
Feeling v depressed and sorry for myself today!
WANDERER XXXX
