Dear Fultime
I can completely understand how you are feeling, the panic and the thought of losing what is keeping you sane; batting the thoughts about what to do back and forth in your mind. Can you tell if your depression generalised or is it because of anything specific? Could be because you are missing the higher HRT dose or maybe because you are worried about the thought of stopping HRT completely? It's just my personal opinion, but I don't think anti depressants make much, if any, difference unless there is a clinical depression. I had reactive depression and my GP tried me on AD's (this was a good few years ago) and they did nothing to help me, I managed to “sort my head out†and even though I still get bouts of depression so far I have managed to work my way out of it without AD or other medication. This is just my personal experience I have no problem with ADs I just think that they are most effective for clinical depression not if there is a reason and something can be done about that, even if that is just finding a way to accept what's causing the depression and deal with it that way. I hope this is making sense and isn't sounding patronising!
If you have the opportunity to stay on HRT and you have balanced the health risks then I think (again just my personal opinion) that as important as the “health risks†are the quality of life issues. None of us know what the future holds, but a day to day quality of life we can enjoy with our family and friends is just as important as any other consideration about staying on HRT.
I am in a similar dilemma about staying on coming off HRT, although not complicated by fybriods. I am going to try and reduce over the coming year and see what happens. I hope that you are able to come to a decision, limbo land, is an awful place to be! But for various reasons I put quality of my life - and by extension my husband's life - very very high on my list of priorities in any risk/benefit analysis.
Sarah2 I am interested about the 50:50 figures you mention, where did you come across this information? I am obviously very interested in what my chances are of coming off HRT gradually without a complete “full on†return of symptoms.
I guess we all have to make our own decisions but I wish we could be allowed to make them and not have them made for us.
Lubylou