Gypsy, I am in awe of your attitude to insomnia. I can't cope with it - I can cope with almost anything else despite my anxiety. I once went 3 months without sleep (and didn't die, but was v ill). When I was nursing my old cat, I barely slept for 14 months - I became ill, but I survived. But in the latter scenario, I was a carer with a point more important than my own health or sleep (I loved my cat very deeply).
I fight my anxiety as I am aware that it is a senseless, pointless, waste of life. They call depression a 'black dog'; anxiety is more like a flipping elephant. I've been wired to anxiety since I was a toddler. My parents were both anxious, so I think my tendency got reinforced, but I am solely to blame for the negative effect it's had on my life.
It's the logical/reason vs illogical/fearful.
I have nervous habits that comfort me and I've given up trying to stop them, just go with the flow. I've started noticing though when I do them and when I don't. There seems little logic to it.
Just imagine we could harness the negative energy into positive energy!