Don't put yourself under pressure to go away CLKD. Why not just enjoy your birthday at home in your own surroundings? You can go out locally for lunch if you want and maybe have a walk through nearby countryside or visit one of your favourite antique shops. A birthday is a time for YOU to do what you want and, even though you may feel you should want to go further afield, at the moment home is where you would much rather be it seems to me.
Taz x