I started feeling pretty awful around my 50th Birthday and went down with depression, following a long stint of not being able to think straight, sleep or feel cheerful. I went to the doctor in tears and she perscribed anti-depressants. I now wish I hadn't taken them as they only masked the symptoms I had and made me put on weight. With no female members of my family or close female friends to talk to I had no idea that it was probably the perimenopause as I was still having regular periods. I could no longer work, which was devastating as I was a succesful teacher. When i came off the anti-depressants I had weird flushes. Still having periods so didn't associate it with menopause. The my periods stopped for a couple of months and then came back regular again.
A couple of years later and another bout of depression and anti-depressants. The when I came off these I started to have really bad tiredness and dizziness and had a couple of seriously heavy periods before finally the doctor took blood tests. I cannot tell you how ill I was feeling, especially at night!!!
I tried patches and my depression got worse. I was signed off work again and this time refused anti-depressants, opting for talking therapy, which did help as I had had several bereavements. Then I went on Elleste Duet 1mg and after a few months on sequential HRT low dose I felt normal again, for the whole of the following summer
I felt much, much better. Started regular exercise again and was sleeping and coping well. Vitamin B Complex also helped with this.
No 55 I have just been to docs as symptoms of brain fog, serious joint problems and extreme exhaustion were returning and I have now been put on Continuous Combined Therapy. At first Elleste Duet Conti 2mg and 1mg. I felt uncomfortable with the higher risks and went back and now I am on Kliovance 1mg and 0.5mg. I have had constant 'spotting' but hope this will pass in a few months. I am still exhausted but blood tests show nothing unusual, so hoping this will pass. Having slight issues with night sweats but this may be the weather.
All in all I think HRT has helped me a lot and I really wish the first doctor has thought of perimenopause instead of putting me on anti-depressants as they really took the joy out of my life.