Hi Ladies,
I need a place to vent! Me and my hubby have been together for 18 years and I am seriously questioning our relationship. We are not married but may as well be for how long we have been together.
Anyway I feel I am less tolerant of things that I just lived with before.
My hubby has been in and out of work since we met. Money has always been a struggle. Recently he left his current job due to various issues but had assured me he would not leave until he found another job. Then announced one day he was leaving.
This went out the window and he is now without work. I am now into my overdraft trying to pay for everything out of my wage.
I am just fed up of living like this. Most of the jobs he tends to get involves me having to drop him off at work as public transport won't get him there in time.
He passed his driving test years ago but we can't afford a 2nd car and to be honest he hasn't ever driven!.
There are things we need done to the house but as we never have regular 2 wages coming in we rarely have the money to get improvements done.
I am so fed up as all the time we have been together we have always struggled for money due to his job situation.
My son is 15 and has a couple important years coming up with schooling so I don't want to affect him.
I have been paying interest only on my mortgage for the past 18 years due to the unpredictable nature of my hubby's jobs.
It was only supposed to be temporary that I paid interest only.
I am due some money soon which means I can pay remaining mortgage off.
Hubby thinks if there is any left over should use to do home improvements but I may use some of whats left but not all of it as its my inheritance and once its gone I have no other money spare.
I am so unhappy at the min and know if I ask about job situation it will cause an argument. I can't be with someone who is ready to walk out on jobs with no other job pending leaving me with the worry and burden off all the bills and food costs.
My sister has told me to just give it abit longer for him to find a job and understands me being fed up.
I struggle with my anxiety and depression as it is and really am fed up.
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