Thank you so much for all your really postive, supportive and heartfelt replies.
You've actually lifted a huge weight off me, just knowing that I am not alone.
Sheila, I think I will speak with my GP on Monday, about progesterone alternatives. But I am leaning towards stopping, and looking into lifestyle changes, and see if there is anything else they can offer for the joint pain.
I have never felt so depressed, I feel a level of pointlessness to life on HRT.
I stopped my progresterone two nights ago, and already feel a little clearer, and lighter, not hugely but enough. I would be due to start again on the 3rd of July, so will keep monitoring. Interestingly I didn't find HRT helped very much with hot flushes, or brain fog, in fact, brain fog became worse.
Emma, thank you for sharing, I certainly share your frustration. There is also a ridiculous amount of pressure to go on HRT, which I know is a God send for many, but the world of medicine has a long way to go in getting this right! There are many contradictory research papers on safety, effectiveness, it's a minefield. Men would have this nailed if it were their burden to carry. I am sick and tired of celebrities sharing their positive experiences of it, when in fact it doesn't work for many. Plus I feel the world of private medicine has different remits.
I have a medical prescription for CBD / THC, the THC will knock you out at night, but it does help with pain. The CBD has helped with my anxiety, and I function well with it. If anyone else has any positive experiences of alternative, differing medications I would love to hear about it.
I tried turmeric but it did nothing! I can recommend Vitamin D.