Angieyy, sorry to hear you have having such a difficult time.
From what you're have said, it sounds like you might be progesterone intolerant. You mentioned post natal depression which is an indicator. Did you also have PMS? The type of migraine you have is often triggered by progesterone too. Did you have migraines during pregnancy and/or menstrual migraines? Your doctor has suggested a very long spell of oestrogen only so it sounds like they are thinking progesterone intolerance.
The late Professor John Studd has written a lot of papers on progesterone intolerance and post partum depression so you might want to have a Google and read up on that and see if any of it seems relevant to you.
Often women in your situation take the pill to override the cycle but you said it makes you feel ill so that is not really an option. Probably the best way forward for now is to see if you feel better on oestrogen only and if you do, you probably need to increase to two pumps of Oestrogel to get anything real benefit a mood lift.
For the progesterone component of HRT, a low dose progesterone coil might be a good option and I do stress a low dose coil like the Jaydess as opposed to the higher dose Mirena because you are (I think) progesterone intolerant but this will only be confirmed if you feel better on oestrogen only.
For the painful cystic breasts, have you ever been offered progesterone cream or gel? It has very good results for some women and it is not harmful.
I do hope that helps.
Thank you for your reply, lost to look into. Yes I have suffered terrible with pmt maybe pmdd but I've never had it diagnosed as I wouldn't tell my doctor. I have always suffered with intrusive thoughts, internal voices , extremely low mood and not wanting to be here the week leading up to my period but then as soon my period comes everything goes away and its like im (normal) again.
I just held on to the fact I knew I would be ok in a week. Its been a real struggle throughout my 20s and 30s and I guess I was scared to tell my doctor in case they took my son away from me when I was younger. hes now 21 and he has no clue which im happy about.
Now being perimenopausal I do so much better with my mental health. I don't have any of it, in fact I think I do better without hormones but what has come at the cost is racing resting heart rate, palpitations, water infections, migraines, vertigo, stiff joints, a constant feeling of being exhausted and not much stamina.
Since taking the hrt the anxiety that I've had, has been amplified and I couldn't leave the house one day, I also had a day where I became confused and a real foggy brain and not knowing what day it was I have never had this before.
My breast have been so painful and felt heavy also larger that on Sunday I stopped taking the estrogen gel too. Its now Wednesday and they are starting to feel less painful I can also think straight again and feel so much better in my self I was becoming so snappy and irritated also that my son asked me if I was ok, as i'm normally easy going and not easily bothered by things.
My plan was to wait until my breast felt back to normal and restart the estrogel maybe just a half or a quarter pump per day and see how I get on with that.
I do have gallbladder and gilberts disease so not sure if that has any effect on the way my body processes it.
Thank You