Thanks folks. Amanda that is very interesting. So - do you have Graves? Why is your T3 so high? And how can it be, if your T4 is zero - where is the T3 coming from?!
I'm very interested that your endo has said it can take 6 months. I have tried to find this out but all I can find is that it can take 6 months for TSH to recover to normal range. And my TSH is in normal range. That's the problem - it shouldn't be. I mean, my other thyroid hormones are not likely to increase if my TSH isn't requesting that...
I just don't know how to get out of this situation, because if I get back onto thyroid meds, how is that going to support my TSH recovery? On the other hand I can't live this hypo for up to 6 months....
I did find this paper which was interesting in terms of eating disorders and thyroid stuff:
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/3114819/ It talks about "normal basal levels of serum TSH with normal or
delayed responses to TRH. " And " A delayed TSH response to TRH was noted in 66% of patients, hyporesponsiveness was seen in another 24%, and a normal response in only 10%. " That would fit with my increased prolactin, which is responding like it's supposed to, to TRH - whilst my TSH isn't.
I have always been a just-normal BMI, I mean I haven't been formally diagnosed with an eating disorder or hospitalised. I would just eat for a day and then fast for many days because my metabolism got so slow that eating normally for that one day would then take many days of fasting to get over. I did this all my life, I couldn't see an alternative. A few years ago I tried to 'just eat normally'. After 2 months I'd gained about 2 stone and I decided to call a halt to the experiment. It seemed that my body would hold onto anything I ate after a lifetime of deprivation. Whilst on thyroid meds, I discovered I could override all this. I could actually eat normally and my metabolism sped up to be that of a normal person's. It was life-changing. (Socially, personally, in every way. If I need to be on thyroid meds to live like that, I will be - it's a quality of life thing.) I reverse dieted up to 2400 calories. Then I came off the thyroid meds and tried to maintain all that, thinking that now I was eating normally and regularly and high protein, things would be okay. And this is what's happened. I am still eating, but my metabolism has slowed. Not to what it was before I went on the thyroid meds, but slower than when I was on them. Which is to be expected, looking at that thyroid panel.
SundayGirl, I've been dealing with thyroid stuff for a year now so I know all that. rT3 is relevant - but only in the context of the rest of the thyroid panel. My antibodies are always normal. They have been tested many times, including just now.
Bombshell, I've contacted the thyroid doctor I was seeing to ask if he can fit me in, as the next appointment he has online is January. I'm a bit reluctant to involve my NHS GP as it would mean sharing these results which have the high estradiol result on them (890pmol). I've since reduced my gel dose, aiming for 650pmol - but I don't want her to start refusing to prescribe my high dose E or I'll be in a mess as I can't afford these doses privately.

I tried cutting the gel out totally and just using 200mcg patches, but I got the horrible night time meno anxiety back, so that was taking me too low - so I halved the dose to 3 pumps at night only. (I was doing 3 in the AM and PM.)
I have people telling me I should book a private head/brain MRI to check my pituitary and also get a private ACTH blood test done.... Everything is just so expensive and the NHS is so crap with both meno and thyroid stuff. I think about getting health insurance but it would now exclude all this

If I don't suppress my TSH (because I don't take enough T3 to suppress it), will that enable it to recover? And then I can gradually wean off this 15mcg of T3 I'm on?